Work Blues
First week of work... and work so far is, well, ok I guess. I can say that I enjoy this work to a fair degree, considering hat I enjoyed working on embedded systems (CoE 115, my 198). While the work we are doing so far is not that hard -there are things to do, but nothing unsolvable- but so far, I don't think I'm performing as well as I could. While I believe my "boredom" will be gone once I start working, well it looks like I am wrong. I guess "boredom" was the wrong term to describe what I've been feeling so far. The more proper term would probably be "unmotivated."
While I am not really a person of motivation for the first years of my life, for the past couple of years, things changed and I've gained more things to motivate me. However, before I know it things that motivate me seems to disappear for various reasons. Thinking about it, graduating and landing was probably the last motivation I have. Now that I have attained both, well I guess I have no more real "target" so far. And while there are lots (quite a number of them, actually) of "targets" I have set my eyes on, many of which I believe I should really work on, well somehow I just don have much drive to "work" on them. And it's not that I'm giving up on them either, but I am only able to take baby steps on them.
Thinking, I guess the main reason I am not that motivated is there is still one "thing" I really want to work on, but at the same time, I can't. So far I'm a loss on what to do about it. And even though I've been thinking that I shouldn't be an uneasy, be patient and wait for a while, since most likely answers will just come in due time, well I'm not really the epitome of patient and calmness.
There are actually a few times for the past week that I really felt not working at all and even contemplated that I shouldn't have worked so quickly after working. Heck, even resigning crossed my mind for a bit, but I guess I'm stupid I know well enough not to pass on the opportunities I have. I also have responsibilities now, and as much as being irresponsible and not caring about things seem to be really a good idea right now, so far, I know enough not to entertain those thoughts. Besides, I don't think that is God's will for me, so I should just have faith, wait and be patient. (Finally thought out of ryhming words XD)
Sore ja, jikai wo otanoshimi~ ^w^
While I am not really a person of motivation for the first years of my life, for the past couple of years, things changed and I've gained more things to motivate me. However, before I know it things that motivate me seems to disappear for various reasons. Thinking about it, graduating and landing was probably the last motivation I have. Now that I have attained both, well I guess I have no more real "target" so far. And while there are lots (quite a number of them, actually) of "targets" I have set my eyes on, many of which I believe I should really work on, well somehow I just don have much drive to "work" on them. And it's not that I'm giving up on them either, but I am only able to take baby steps on them.
Thinking, I guess the main reason I am not that motivated is there is still one "thing" I really want to work on, but at the same time, I can't. So far I'm a loss on what to do about it. And even though I've been thinking that I shouldn't be an uneasy, be patient and wait for a while, since most likely answers will just come in due time, well I'm not really the epitome of patient and calmness.
There are actually a few times for the past week that I really felt not working at all and even contemplated that I shouldn't have worked so quickly after working. Heck, even resigning crossed my mind for a bit, but I guess I'm stupid I know well enough not to pass on the opportunities I have. I also have responsibilities now, and as much as being irresponsible and not caring about things seem to be really a good idea right now, so far, I know enough not to entertain those thoughts. Besides, I don't think that is God's will for me, so I should just have faith, wait and be patient. (Finally thought out of ryhming words XD)
Sore ja, jikai wo otanoshimi~ ^w^