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I dont get it...When you seem to be the first thing on anyones mind.. Then your not even in their thoughts at all. you arent even somthing they worry about until you yell at them or leave...I cant sleep.I want Jenica, I want someone. I want him. But I dont want him If Im not the one he thinks about if Im not the one he calls or comes to see. If he would rather see other girls and would rather talk to people online and think about THEM first then fine... its ok with me.. get pushed in the back again like normal. Pushed in the back with all the dirty clothes.. with all the jaded matter that you all have, we all have in our rooms. We just dont talk about it. Im sick of getting excited, getting happy only for the fire to be put right back out. Tired of my dreams and hopes slowly being stabbed in the chest in a slow bloody painful mess. always seems to end bad....