Change of Plans
Had a change of plans for later this summer/fall. Was planning to swing in and spend the weekend with some friends, but had to change it up for a number of reason. SOOO I'll swing in and visit some other friends... ALL GOOD though. I need anything to help with the stupid anxiety issues.
I swear. When things start going well, my body tenses and I start thinking about what is going to go wrong as things don't normally go right. For example. Work seems to be going in the right direction, then someone says something semi-cryptic and like flood gates panic ensues. This was a precursor to my depression and downward spiral before.
Difference is, now I see it and am trying to intercept it before it gets bad. So I'm trying to prevent a relapse. I just wish I had some friends to actually talk to this about, rather than feeling like a burden. It was that feeling before that also put me going face first into the ground :P SO as prescribed, I'm going to try to open up. At least here, with me myself and I, to try not to bury feelings.
ANYWAYS! Here's hoping that this summer is the start to better things :)