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The goddamn house is decorated like an airport run way. Thank god I am working 99% of the Holiday season. Too bad I am off Sunday, I will be dragged in to going to look at Christmas lights. But that's all right considering Friday is payday and I am broke. Plus next week is that mother daughter day deal. I've been extra nice lately since mom needs back surgery. Now that I work I take her out to the movies and lunch once a pay check. It's not so bad I even let her pick where to go. Hopefully she'll say either P. F. Changs cause they have the best lettuce wraps or the Sushi place. Than maybe we'll finally go see Kill Bill. I've been waiting forever to see that damn movie but last week all my friends wanted to see Gothika. And I am a loser who is straggling to the last minute to finish my Christmas shopping. But I got a Victoria Secret card in the mail today, so I am going to get some of their good smelling lotion with that.
This is sad I should be in bed but my damn tooth ache woke me up at 5:30 and I can't get back to bed. Maybe I'll play some Project Gothem Racing on Xbox live, or maybe I'll just lay there for an hour or so until I fall asleep. Christ, I just realized how boring this entry was.
Today at work they had Christmas music playing and I am all anti towards that stuff, but I started singing and Terrie looked at me funny. So I had to tell her how when I was a catholic school girl I was a goodie goodie in choir and we did Christmas concerts. Don't tell anyone, but I somewhat enjoyed those days. Probably partly because my grandma was still alive. I truly believe that's why Christmas is so hard on me. I just remember how fun she used to make everything. We'd go to the mall and if I wanted something like a new super Nintendo game she'd buy it for me. She'd take the game out and let me play it than wrap the box up so my mom would think it was a total surprise for me. But mom eventually caught on though so never let us now. It was our little secret every year. I guess I just miss moments like that. Plus hating my stepdad doesn't make the holidays any easier. Well, I am going to try and get some sleep now.
This is sad I should be in bed but my damn tooth ache woke me up at 5:30 and I can't get back to bed. Maybe I'll play some Project Gothem Racing on Xbox live, or maybe I'll just lay there for an hour or so until I fall asleep. Christ, I just realized how boring this entry was.
Today at work they had Christmas music playing and I am all anti towards that stuff, but I started singing and Terrie looked at me funny. So I had to tell her how when I was a catholic school girl I was a goodie goodie in choir and we did Christmas concerts. Don't tell anyone, but I somewhat enjoyed those days. Probably partly because my grandma was still alive. I truly believe that's why Christmas is so hard on me. I just remember how fun she used to make everything. We'd go to the mall and if I wanted something like a new super Nintendo game she'd buy it for me. She'd take the game out and let me play it than wrap the box up so my mom would think it was a total surprise for me. But mom eventually caught on though so never let us now. It was our little secret every year. I guess I just miss moments like that. Plus hating my stepdad doesn't make the holidays any easier. Well, I am going to try and get some sleep now.