bad times
I'm having so many things running throught my mind today that I cant control I'm going to probably quit the softball team i really dont have a good reason but in a way it just seems right,as Im worried more than anything about my friend she's so down all the time because of her ex bf, I feel so bad for her and in a way i wish i could do something to chear her up she's in love with him more than anything and yet I don't think he treats her the way she deserves to be treated.
As theres this guy im still in love with he dosent love me back i guess so that hurts alot and the fact that we never talk anymore sucks because i miss hearing his voice and being in his arms I wish I woould have had done alot of things with him maybe if i would have we would still be together as everyday i question myself to if it was my fault it didnt work out.
I feel like im going to have a nervous breakdown and everyday I swear I become more emotional to where I could just cry about everything, the only person who i can only relate to the most is Danielle any time i needed her she was there and i could talk to her about anything and yet no matter what the reason she always knows what to say in the situations and im so glad I can have that type of person in my life
I guess lifes problems dont stop just cause u have a hard time and i read something the other day in my friends profile that really made me think about my life " God put us on this Earth to witness, not judge" and yet i still judge people as i see that I'm not being that good of a christian and these problems I'm having is just a challenge that will help me later in life such as my other grandpa dying infront of my eyes and me witnessing it makes me relize how thankful I am that I'm healthy as I guess i just had to hear myself say all of this out loud and reading this makes me think that maybe this day isnt so bad because other people in the world are dying or face harder problems than just love or being deppressed well im going to go and try and have a better day lyl meghan
As theres this guy im still in love with he dosent love me back i guess so that hurts alot and the fact that we never talk anymore sucks because i miss hearing his voice and being in his arms I wish I woould have had done alot of things with him maybe if i would have we would still be together as everyday i question myself to if it was my fault it didnt work out.
I feel like im going to have a nervous breakdown and everyday I swear I become more emotional to where I could just cry about everything, the only person who i can only relate to the most is Danielle any time i needed her she was there and i could talk to her about anything and yet no matter what the reason she always knows what to say in the situations and im so glad I can have that type of person in my life
I guess lifes problems dont stop just cause u have a hard time and i read something the other day in my friends profile that really made me think about my life " God put us on this Earth to witness, not judge" and yet i still judge people as i see that I'm not being that good of a christian and these problems I'm having is just a challenge that will help me later in life such as my other grandpa dying infront of my eyes and me witnessing it makes me relize how thankful I am that I'm healthy as I guess i just had to hear myself say all of this out loud and reading this makes me think that maybe this day isnt so bad because other people in the world are dying or face harder problems than just love or being deppressed well im going to go and try and have a better day lyl meghan