feeling proud
It's been a whole 2 years today since I stopped smoking.
I smoked since I was 14 so that's 10 years of smoking. I do have my liquid cig still, don't think I'd be able to manage without it. Not yet anyway and I have to admit that I have had the odd drag when I've been out drinking. Other then that tho I've kicked it in. I'm rather proud of myself. I was worried that stopping smoking, not going out to calm down during confrontational situations would effect me in a bad way, I thought that things would build up again and I'd start lashing out at myself (self harming). Hasn't happened tho thankfully. My meds keep me cool and I've learnt how to handle things better over the years. Sometimes I have the thoughts and I have to go busy myself but that's normal for someone with my history (I've been told). Last night was a tough night for me. I think that's why I woke up with such a bad headache and ended up having a hell of a day. I don't know what my problem was last night but I felt so flipping sad. I had myself a cry and then concentrated on my stitching and went to sleep. I do feel better today emotionally anyways. I'm tired tho, feel like I could do with a week in a coma.
Going to have a read though your blogs and then get some shut eye. I must say I am really enjoying blogging again and I'm enjoying getting to know new people too. It is giving me the lift I was looking for. So thank you to all those that have been active! I appreciate it xx