guess it's time...
time for an update i suppose since i like to abandon this n not really care... wow i get that same treatment myself... but that's a whole otha seminar... so yea i was doing pretty good there for a while ya know...then it faded... n today just blew up in my face like a time bomb... i was blah to begin with...then my bro, sis, n her bitch ass g/f started shit like they alwayz like to fuckin do... we all got in a huge arguement... i'm tired of drama causing shit talkin bitches...y the fuck u gonna talk shit behind pplz backs n not fess the fuck up...n let a bitch come between blood...fuck that shit... im beyond pissed n hurt n fed up with all of it... i'm tired of ppl usen me...only comin to me for help...n shit like that... i'm tired of gettin treated like shit... and its pathetic when u get that same treatment from BLOOD! wow what a fuckin life i live... my goals... my appareance, loosen weight, big change...workin on gettin a job... i went around everywhere to find out who was hiring...then applied ya kno, n nope can't hire cuz of holidays...so i gotta keep tryin...its like i fuckin try n still don't get shit...wtf... imma move the fuck outta here... go my own damn way... do shit for myself for once... no more will i let ppl fuckin walk over me and treat me like shit...imma be a straight up cunt if need be... i can't take all of this shit anymore...im alwayz fuckin nice and respectable...yet i get treated like shit for it in return...wtf... i hate this fuckin world...this fuckin life i live... im ready for this change to kick in n finish... im in the process of workin on it...n yes i really am... believe it or not... i have been workin on it for a week now... so yea im a big wreck right now... i doubt yall fuckin care...but fuck it... im real negative a big bitch right now... im real hateful...so this is all gonna sound harsh... tough...this is how i fuckin feel n this is my journal to cope...since i gotta talk to my own damn self bout it newayz ya know...only a select few willf uckin listen n care wtf is up... PATHETIC! im out fuck it i cant even fuckin think!