May 23, 2008 23:10
THE MOVIE WAS AWESOME!
I have to say, I wasn't too thrilled when i first thought of going to see it, but it was way different than I expected, and I absolutely loved it, when at the end he admitted to the press "I am Ironman." GREAT MOVIE! GO SEE IT PEOPLE! Ironically ("it would be ironic if we were allmade out of iron" -caboose) we heard Ironman by the Black Sabbath, earlier in the car going out for lunch, performed/recorded when Ozzy still had half his brain in normal working order. Don't do drug, they destory dreams (Greg the Bunny reference)
So anyway, here's the grades for this semester (not too good! ^_^UUU)
cpl- B+
Orgo-B+
criminalistics C+ (I really mustve bombed the final oops)
Micro- C (I PASSED! YAY!)
So i had a nightmare, which i will put up tomorrow, bc i thought it was kinda funny afterwards, and really should've realized it was just a nightmare, but appaerently i'm not that bright
So yeah, talking is very cathartic. my mom talks to me a lot about the whole thing, and I feel better and better, i think of him less and less, and I feel just like my old self again, which is a really good thing. I actually can't wait to start working again! Wooo!
My anger cleared up a lot. I listened to scenes from an italian resturant, and then it got to the part of brenda and eddie, and i thought it sounded like josh and i, and all i could think was wow I'm at least glad i didn't marry him right off (he wanted to get married as soon as possible) and I guess i let it go. I still have regrets, but I feel better. My mom told me that i wasn't really even me around him, i held back a bit of myself, and i realize now, even though i didn't think so then, i thought i was always genuine, but hindsight is 20/20 and even meg said something similar, and NOW i see they were right. SIIIIIIIIIIIIGH Also, my mom mentioned that some people notice how others can make them shine, and Josh could never do that with me, he was always too needy...this I knew, and although I didn't mind, i now realize that wasn't healthy, and not good for me...i gave as much as i could and just couldn't get enough that i needed or deserved back. So now I know i need to find someone who can make me shine, who can love me back as well.
In other news, eyesight as told by the doctor is 20/400 corrected to 20/20, room is kinda clean(ed) car still has things, still bags in living room, meg is coming home in a week! So life is good and I'm happy.
Oh, and if your reading this Jess- CONGRADULATIONS! I heard from my mom, I'm so happy for you and Phil both, and i'll be praying for health and strenght for the next several months lol ^_~
So I'll update again sooner, and hope everyone is well!
Until next time, Ja ne!