Ello Ello!
Wow haven't seen you lot in a while O_O
Well here goes I guess, my next rant...
Weirdly, there's nothing I can think of saying. There are so many problems running through my head at the moment I haven't shared a single one with anyone - and I don't want to. I never realised that keeping things up inside actually helps.. strange.. I've always grown up thinking its best to tell people.
But then I guess the number one reason I'm not telling people is because I've completely lost trust for people these days. Someones always saying something another persons said - even I can't keep secrets like I used to. The second reason being nobody seems to tell me the right answers, they always seem to be against me in some form. If anyone does actually read this then they will just think I'm a teenager, I go through that stage - but thats exactly what I'm talking about. I seem to get no sympathy.. which is why I've given up.
I have one million problems at home right now - none of us are getting along, I've even thought about running away. Not completely - just move to a friends house until my dad leaves.. but I don't want him to leave I just can't stand him.. again its strange. I was suprised when Beth looked at me in total shock when I said my family don't get along. I thought family life was normally hard, but when I asked a couple of other people they were slightly shocked too, although I tried not to make it too obvious I was having 'problems'.
I don't want my parents to split up, I really REALLY don't! But then I really CANNOT stand my dad. He picks at me, for fuck sake everytime he comes in the room he makes me want to cry - literally. He doesn't use physical voilance, he doesn't use mental, but for some reason I just don't feel comfortable anymore. And I feel like a complete twat as I write this because it makes me want to cry right now, but he's my dad and I still love him so what can I do?
Anyway, its Dean's party tomorrow and I'm planning on getting ready during the day. Oh joy.. Studio :|
Night!
Cat
xxx
Well here goes I guess, my next rant...
Weirdly, there's nothing I can think of saying. There are so many problems running through my head at the moment I haven't shared a single one with anyone - and I don't want to. I never realised that keeping things up inside actually helps.. strange.. I've always grown up thinking its best to tell people.
But then I guess the number one reason I'm not telling people is because I've completely lost trust for people these days. Someones always saying something another persons said - even I can't keep secrets like I used to. The second reason being nobody seems to tell me the right answers, they always seem to be against me in some form. If anyone does actually read this then they will just think I'm a teenager, I go through that stage - but thats exactly what I'm talking about. I seem to get no sympathy.. which is why I've given up.
I have one million problems at home right now - none of us are getting along, I've even thought about running away. Not completely - just move to a friends house until my dad leaves.. but I don't want him to leave I just can't stand him.. again its strange. I was suprised when Beth looked at me in total shock when I said my family don't get along. I thought family life was normally hard, but when I asked a couple of other people they were slightly shocked too, although I tried not to make it too obvious I was having 'problems'.
I don't want my parents to split up, I really REALLY don't! But then I really CANNOT stand my dad. He picks at me, for fuck sake everytime he comes in the room he makes me want to cry - literally. He doesn't use physical voilance, he doesn't use mental, but for some reason I just don't feel comfortable anymore. And I feel like a complete twat as I write this because it makes me want to cry right now, but he's my dad and I still love him so what can I do?
Anyway, its Dean's party tomorrow and I'm planning on getting ready during the day. Oh joy.. Studio :|
Night!
Cat
xxx