Feb 17, 2004 03:20
Ugh. And I don't mean the natural responsive sound that the letters u-g-h represent; I mean the quite expressive word UGH. I am almost done having to take any medicine for pain but I am about to just flush them down the toilet. I absolutely cannot stand them. The first day was ok, a combination of relaxation, relief and a few giggles. By the third day I was over it. This experience has led me to wonder about the individuals who are addicted to the very same pills I am detesting at this present time. I was horrified before that a person would choose to just exist instead of live. Now I know that it is worse. How could anyone choose this existence over whatever sober reality they might have? Can it really be that unbearable? I do, of course, have to keep in mind that people are over and over again forfeiting their lives because they just don't think they can handle it anymore. I can't help but keep the opinion that this is an impetuous mentality. These people that cannot seem to handle the trials and tribulations of this life should consider that MAYBE, just MAYBE there is something past this life. It has yet to be proven or disproven. We know nothing about it if it does indeed exist. Why purposely go there? An escape? It might not be as pleasant as Over the Rainbow. Who knows? There just can't be much thought put into this leap of faith. It is as misguided as saying 'My house is too full, I think I need to leave and go to the mall'.
These people should seek the death card instead of death. The death card represents rebirth through change, maybe even forceful change. The outcome is good but the transition seems destructive. The death card is like a fire raging through a forest. It is very bad for the birds and the trees, with their rings that have marked the memory of many years, but it is very good for the underbrush just waiting to replace all of this with new life. Just another forest? Then let's put a shopping mall with a 500 car parking lot into the metaphor. Whatever.
Just change something, change everything, maybe even forever if it is necessary. It can't seem too radical compared to ending your life with no positive idea if the place you are going will be better or worse or if the option to change will even be an option.