Baby Steps
I can't eat with chopsticks but I would like to learn how to. I only like to write with finepoint pens in black ink. I used to believe that there was a monster who lived under my bed. I write things down so I won't forget them. I misplace the paper shortly afterwards. I remember to take my multivitamin everyday. I hate redlights. I play in the rain every chance I can get even if it is cold. I always pull the tabs off my soda cans. I talk to strangers. I am afraid of the dark. I pick flowers and give them to strangers. Sometimes I press them and give them to friends instead. I fold the pages in books to mark my spot. Simon was my favorite chipmunk. I hate kidney beans. I cried the first time I heard Charlotte Church sing. I trace my fingers along braille even though I have no idea what each individual texture means. I have only made one snow angel in my life. Bubble wrap is NEVER safe around me. I try to live as if this is all there is. I don't quite believe that this is all there is. I look for four-leaf clovers. My grandfather bought me a pair of pink fuzzy slippers for christmas. I wear them all the time. I am afraid of beetles. If I find a bug in my house I put it outside in the grass, where it belongs, even if it is a beetle. I had a poster of Fred Savage on my wall when I was 10. I go to coffeeshops alone and watch people. I think they watch me back. I was a tomboy. I think I still am. I want to learn how to play the guitar. I read licence plates and imagine what the people driving the car are like if they are from somewhere else. I always turn counter-clockwise in my sleep. When someone asks 'how are you?' I always respond 'better than yesterday and worst than tomorrow'.I read the nutritional facts but quickly disregard them and eat whatever I want. I have a big heart for small furry animals. I have nightmares almost every night. I still wonder about that monster under my bed.