I still cry
Sometimes I don't understand why things happen inside me. I am happy, yet tears are falling. A few minutes ago I listened to a song that made me cry, but not because of the song itself, it carried much meaning in my own life, and my past. I can't exactly say why I started crying but I did. It's hard sometimes. I don't even know or understand why, but love just leaves your heart so raw that it can never completely heal. I know that's the way it is supposed to be, becasue the bible says love never ends. Relationships end, but not love. The form of the love can change, but the love is still there if it was real.
This isn't the first time I have cried for the same reasons. Sometimes I just need to. Every once in a while my heart just remembers and it has to cry a little. I don't think it's bad....I think it's a result of loving so deeply that it changes a person....and that's not bad at all. In fact, I would never have changed it for the world. I feel greatful for it, despite the pain. It has helped make me the person I am today. It helped me understand true love. I feel fourtinate to have been given the gift of love so deeply now, and in the past. I consider it a gift to have ever felt love as deep as I do.
I want Manda. *Makes pouty face*. I need a hug from my Manda. I apologise for being rather cryptic...but I don't exactly feel like going into detail at the present moment. I couldn't exactly put it into words very well anyways. I think I will go read my book for a while.
On a side note, I spend way too much money today. I bought some movies from the book Bin and Borders, and some books from Borders. I cannot spend anymore!! : D. Except on Hamster food and bedding. And my next pay check is going straight into the bank! Anyways, Peace out! : D.
This isn't the first time I have cried for the same reasons. Sometimes I just need to. Every once in a while my heart just remembers and it has to cry a little. I don't think it's bad....I think it's a result of loving so deeply that it changes a person....and that's not bad at all. In fact, I would never have changed it for the world. I feel greatful for it, despite the pain. It has helped make me the person I am today. It helped me understand true love. I feel fourtinate to have been given the gift of love so deeply now, and in the past. I consider it a gift to have ever felt love as deep as I do.
I want Manda. *Makes pouty face*. I need a hug from my Manda. I apologise for being rather cryptic...but I don't exactly feel like going into detail at the present moment. I couldn't exactly put it into words very well anyways. I think I will go read my book for a while.
On a side note, I spend way too much money today. I bought some movies from the book Bin and Borders, and some books from Borders. I cannot spend anymore!! : D. Except on Hamster food and bedding. And my next pay check is going straight into the bank! Anyways, Peace out! : D.