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"sit with that" what does it even mean? I am sitting with ym anger right now. i am angry at mt fucking thankless ass job that fucking sucks bricks and i feel so powerless and miserable and i hate that i didn'tmask for more money and i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate i i am so under appreciated and treated like shit.
i hate how the assumption is i'm not doing my job. i am deeply offended. like i would quit. if you think that, i would quit.,
i get bored of journaling so quickly. who am i talking to? myself? i don't want to talk to myself. I do that all the time. I hate writing my thoughts out.
The laptop has to be set last because i want to make sure it hasn't lost connection to my laptop. that's why i wait until places. it isn't neglect. i am deeply offended that the assumption is that i wasn't doing my job.
i want to die. the reason why i want to die is because life is painful and too complicated and i feel so useless and my brain is broken and i can't move on and i hate that steve espinola never reaches out to me i'm hurt i'm hurt i'm hurt i;m hurt. i hate that i can't make close friends. i don't trust anyone. i think everyone hates me or dislieks me or doesn