you will be someone in my eyes
i want too much. everytime something comes together, other things begin to fall apart. i cant have everything i want. i guess that selfish of me. i am a selfish person. i wish i wasnt but i am. i want so much for myself and others to be happy, and for everything to always be ok. but i cant accomplish all of those things its either one or the other. everything wont always be ok, and i cant always fix things, no matter how much i wish i could.
realization is coninuously lying to yourself and then finally admitting the truth.
i see so little, yet i blind myself from so much.
forgiveness begins with an s and ends with a y.
i dont like to read your wrongs, i know you're so much better than that.believe me.
and on the last day i will write you a letter. and it will be the longest i have ever written. it will tell my every secret and will recall every moment we spent together, what was thought and never said, what was said and meant, my every secret, my everything. and i will slip it into locker, and you will stand there those last few minutes reading it. youll laugh sometimes, and sometimes seem confused.ill know because ill have the same reaction when i write it. and youll try to think of something good to say, or write. but so much will be in your head, and you probably wont have time. but youll write me a letter, and to me it will seem so perfect, but you will be thinking of how it could be better. and after i get it and read it, i will drive the whole way home with tears in my eyes, yelling the lyrics to the saddest songs. and i will want you. i know i will want you.