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MOTHER FUCKER!!!
what the fuck is wrong with me?! does anyone know? please tell me!
so for the first time in years i was completly happy, not one thing was going wrong. i got a new place, a new job, new friends, new girl.
well i called my mom tonight and it was so nice to hear her voice, i havent seen her in about a month and i miss her like crazy... but she told me how she jsut goes in my room and sits on my bed and thinks about me. well that made me start crying. and then we started talking about how i havent been going to church, and i start feeling like shit. i hate being the black sheep of my family, and i hate thinking about it even more. so when i got off the phone with her i just bawled like a little girl.
and then im like, well why dont i call the girl that i cant stop thinking about and maybe that will cheer me up. bad idea greg. she tells me she doesnt think we should date because i took a few pain killers the other night and she told me she couldnt be with someone who did that. i told her "if thats the problem then ill stop" (id do anything for this girl and i barely know her) but then she said i live to far, and that her ex did to, and she hated how she didnt get to see him as much as she wanted. after she said that i lost all hope, and figured she must just not like me like that i guess. she said we could still be friends, and i jumped all over that, but i know hanging out with her wouldnt make this sad feeling go away. i hate being a fucking sappy romantic bastard. why cant i just be some dick jock who doesnt care about falling in love, or care about being cute, and trying to make things special. how come every time i find a girl that i am remotly interested in i have all these thoughts about relationships, and love, and could she be the one that ive been looking for!?
i wish i had less of a heart or something, cause then it wouldnt fuckin hurt so much all the time
what the fuck is wrong with me?! does anyone know? please tell me!
so for the first time in years i was completly happy, not one thing was going wrong. i got a new place, a new job, new friends, new girl.
well i called my mom tonight and it was so nice to hear her voice, i havent seen her in about a month and i miss her like crazy... but she told me how she jsut goes in my room and sits on my bed and thinks about me. well that made me start crying. and then we started talking about how i havent been going to church, and i start feeling like shit. i hate being the black sheep of my family, and i hate thinking about it even more. so when i got off the phone with her i just bawled like a little girl.
and then im like, well why dont i call the girl that i cant stop thinking about and maybe that will cheer me up. bad idea greg. she tells me she doesnt think we should date because i took a few pain killers the other night and she told me she couldnt be with someone who did that. i told her "if thats the problem then ill stop" (id do anything for this girl and i barely know her) but then she said i live to far, and that her ex did to, and she hated how she didnt get to see him as much as she wanted. after she said that i lost all hope, and figured she must just not like me like that i guess. she said we could still be friends, and i jumped all over that, but i know hanging out with her wouldnt make this sad feeling go away. i hate being a fucking sappy romantic bastard. why cant i just be some dick jock who doesnt care about falling in love, or care about being cute, and trying to make things special. how come every time i find a girl that i am remotly interested in i have all these thoughts about relationships, and love, and could she be the one that ive been looking for!?
i wish i had less of a heart or something, cause then it wouldnt fuckin hurt so much all the time