frustration
alright. this is absurd. i'm not doing well in physics (not surprising since i haven't taken calculus or math in 4 years) and i have no one to love. why? because i didn't have the balls to swoop. now, she's dating someone else and might even get married before the end of college.
what the fuck.
i miss her.
but i know that will fade. so will loving her.
sometimes i wish i weren't such a loner because then i might meet more people and have more possibilities, but then again, meeting a million people who maybe might be right for me is like getting a really bad sunburn a millions of times. I'd rather read a book. So, I do.
Besides, its safer this way. Right?
I think I just need more hugs, and more work, and more boxing, and more brazilian jiu jitsu, and more MIT podcasts, and more nerdy awkward people to hang out with. yeah, thats all. f
what the fuck.
i miss her.
but i know that will fade. so will loving her.
sometimes i wish i weren't such a loner because then i might meet more people and have more possibilities, but then again, meeting a million people who maybe might be right for me is like getting a really bad sunburn a millions of times. I'd rather read a book. So, I do.
Besides, its safer this way. Right?
I think I just need more hugs, and more work, and more boxing, and more brazilian jiu jitsu, and more MIT podcasts, and more nerdy awkward people to hang out with. yeah, thats all. f