don't judge a casserole by its recipe...
so i decided not to take the job....
here's the idea:
i was offered a position with a good company who is looking to start their own in-house design branch. they were looking for a junior web / print designer for a full-time position with good pay and good benefits, which is EXACTLY what i need to get my career started. why did i turn the job down?
here's the problem:
the job is full-time. while that sounds desirable to most, to a person who wants to tour a lot with his band, that sounds UNdesirable. to take this job, i would have had to quit Copeland. do i want to quit Copeland? can i deal with living the rest of my life saying "i could have played music for a living... i could have...?" i don't think i can.
that is why i turned down the job. that is why i'm biting all my nails off, telling myself, "pray, boy, pray... pray that this was what you needed to do right now." there's a poster in valerie's bathroom that are "words of wisdom." one of them says "when you look back on your life, you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the things you did," or something to that effect. i KNOW that i'll regret quitting copeland if i take the job, and i KNOW that i'll regret dropping the job if i so choose.... let's hope this regret is smaller than the regret over copeland would be.
vallie and i went to tallahassee this weekend. MUCH MUCH fun. jason got married, and i got to stay with pat, one of my 3 best friends. vallie and i did cool "tally" stuff, and went to the wedding and such. i love getting to spend entire weekends with my baby... she's so fun. i'm really really lucky to have a best friend as a (really really amazing) girlfriend. OH, also... copeland went up to HOTlanta on Wednesday to record a song for a Tooth And Nail comp. good good fun. the song transformed from this pretty little warm piece into a really big pop song that has a really good hook. good job us.
now i'm going to go play online. the coming weeks are going to be very trying for me, as i need to find a way to make this decision stick. my life needs monetary support, and that's not going to appear out of thin air. let's hope crappy jobs aren't as hard to come by as good ones are.
here's the idea:
i was offered a position with a good company who is looking to start their own in-house design branch. they were looking for a junior web / print designer for a full-time position with good pay and good benefits, which is EXACTLY what i need to get my career started. why did i turn the job down?
here's the problem:
the job is full-time. while that sounds desirable to most, to a person who wants to tour a lot with his band, that sounds UNdesirable. to take this job, i would have had to quit Copeland. do i want to quit Copeland? can i deal with living the rest of my life saying "i could have played music for a living... i could have...?" i don't think i can.
that is why i turned down the job. that is why i'm biting all my nails off, telling myself, "pray, boy, pray... pray that this was what you needed to do right now." there's a poster in valerie's bathroom that are "words of wisdom." one of them says "when you look back on your life, you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the things you did," or something to that effect. i KNOW that i'll regret quitting copeland if i take the job, and i KNOW that i'll regret dropping the job if i so choose.... let's hope this regret is smaller than the regret over copeland would be.
vallie and i went to tallahassee this weekend. MUCH MUCH fun. jason got married, and i got to stay with pat, one of my 3 best friends. vallie and i did cool "tally" stuff, and went to the wedding and such. i love getting to spend entire weekends with my baby... she's so fun. i'm really really lucky to have a best friend as a (really really amazing) girlfriend. OH, also... copeland went up to HOTlanta on Wednesday to record a song for a Tooth And Nail comp. good good fun. the song transformed from this pretty little warm piece into a really big pop song that has a really good hook. good job us.
now i'm going to go play online. the coming weeks are going to be very trying for me, as i need to find a way to make this decision stick. my life needs monetary support, and that's not going to appear out of thin air. let's hope crappy jobs aren't as hard to come by as good ones are.