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everytime i think about us
my stomach drops
my heart breaks into atleast a million pieces
and all i say say is..
" wow i really screwed everything up"
-me
when you look at me
what do you see?
do you see a girl that is letting go
or a girl that is screaming out you name?
-me
have you ever looked someone in the eyes
and wonder if they were happy or not?
-me
you know those girls
with all the make up
all the perfect bodies
perfect clothes
well guess what
about 99% of them
are fake
-me
im gonna walk away
its all up to you
if you would like to catch me
im not gonna look behind
its all up to you.
-me
can i just say sorry ahead of time
for everything wrong about me
i promise there is something
worth keeping
-me
your supposed to be my bestfriend
how can i know?
you act different around everyone else
how can i know you are really trustworthy enough
to be my
bestfriend
-me
it's sad to see two close people not really know or recognize each other anymore.
not because they grew up,
but because they grew apart.
to all the "so-called-friends"
to all the broken hearts
to all the bull shit
this last drink is to you
-me
i sit here and think about everything that has happened this past year
and not a single tear runs down my cheek.
maybe it's because i'm too hurt to cry,
or maybe i'm just too mad at you,
or maybe, just maybe it's my hearts way of telling me this isn't over yet.
there will never be a day
when i dont think of you
i lie awake at night just thinking about "us."
i try not to cry, but that's all i can do
because i remember how we used to say we'd be best friends forever.
and that we'd go through high school together.
well now that htings have changed
but all i can do is cry
i miss my bestfriend
i miss all the laughing
all the stupid inside jokes
i miss you
-me
let's face it, we've changed.
we've all changed.
somewhere between the summer ending and school beginning,
we've all gone in our own directions.
hearts are broken, friends diminished, new love started, and new people came into our lives.
we no longer spend all of our time in our circle of friends.
we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all.
we've changed -
some for the better, some for the worse.
some of us are finding love and others are trying to let go.
even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world,
we all know that when the tears fall or the happy smile spreads across our face;
we'll come back to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us,
nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.
this friendship meant everything to me -
i believed in it, i trusted it, and now it's..
gone.
as i look back on all the good times we had:
parties, shopping, going to the movies, and everything inbetween,
i feel so stupid for actually thinking you were my friend.
friends don't talk behind your back and try to make you miserable.
they're supposed to keep your secrets and cheer you up when you're down.
but, hey what would i know -
this is high school,
what's a real friend anyways?
who are you real friends?
people who you can tell anything to?
people you go shopping with.
people who you stay up all night with
no best friends are
people who talk about you when you arent around
stab you in the back
yeah.. real friends?
i guess theres no such thing.
-me
so appreciate the good times,
but don't take the worst for granted because
you only get so many second chances
friendships don't die, people do.
was it me, or was it you?
we both seemed to change so much,
noticable even to the slightest touch.
maybe my soul was dying,
the roots turn to dust.
maybe your heart stopped beating and we both lost the trust.
maybe our similarities became the difference between.
maybe the secrets and whispers soon became the screams.
maybe it all happened in the blink of an eye.
maybe we were landed by the happiness that soon turned into a lie.
i'm left here wondering how could this be.
and i'm left here asking myself if it was me.
either way, it's over.
our friendship is through.
but friendships don't die..
people do.