The Overdue Notice
Almost two weeks into the New Year, I finally post my end of 2008 entry. Sorry it's late, everyone. Work stress and holiday stress has made me want to retreat to comfortable beds and loving arms. I sleep a lot. I hardly ever go out. I've successfully become a very old, very disgruntled woman. Cat Lady Pride!
So anyway...
Worst of 2008
1. I had a career-related identity crisis and realized too late just what I want to do with my life; I now have to return to school and get ANOTHER degree so I can teach.
2. I completely depressed my mother with making a rapid decision to leave the house.
3. Camel Menthol Wides.
4. I lost touch with a lot of people after I started working full time at the KinderCare.
5. I had to watch almost all of my friends go through their own respective rough patches; some were worse than others and some effected me directly.
6. I had the biggest, all-out scream fest with someone via the telephone when no one was home. He later wedged a half-burned baby doll's head in the tree on the front yard of Baltimore House.
7. I delved deeper than I ever have in my emotional space and found some things I never wanted to look at again.
8. I broke my New Year's resolution to stop hurting myself.
9. I lost a great deal of respect for myself from January to the end of April.
10. I got broken up with on my birthday.
11. I had a tumor in my colon that was removed by a dead-ringer for the lead singer of the All-American Rejects.
12. I worked at Block[Lack]Buster[Luster].
13. I took a job that doesn't pay me the money I need.
14. After I completely ignored the obvious red flags of a romantic situation, I got incredibly drunk one night and had my heart broken with a Regina Spektor soundtrack.
Best of 2008
1. I spent two months with some amazing children who have a great potential to change the world; I subsequently wrote a novel about them.
2. I moved into an apartment in Frederick to begin my life on my own.
3. Camel Menthol Lights!
4. I got hired at the Frederick KinderCare right down the street from my house. Nehigh and Amorah are my favorites.
5. I tried my hardest to be there for the people I love and poured myself into caring for them, even when I couldn't be around to listen.
6. I finally cut the ties of a destructive friendship.
7. I learned so much about my own heart, my own shortcomings, and my own goals in 2008 that the emotional hurt was completely worth it.
8. I haven't cut myself in seven months.
9. I came to terms with my own sexual desires and have found a trusting relationship in which I can express these desires.
10. Everything happens for a reason.
11. Colon tumors are hilarious. That's really the only good thing about it. Also, Pru held my hand while I shit green water.
12. I quit working at Block[Lack]Buster[Luster].
13. I finished a novel and that means I can start looking for publishers and then quit my job.
14. On August the 2nd, I spent the majority of the evening making saucy comments to 2007's "I fell in love and nothing will ever happen but that's okay," now revealed as Steven. August the 2nd into the 3rd, I texted with him for the better part of two hours. August the 3rd, I received a tarot reading from Kelsey Q that told me maybe it wasn't time to be patient anymore. August the 3rd into the 4th, Steven shared his romantic inclinations toward me via the internet. We talked on the phone from 3:15 AM until 7:30 AM, and I went to work on no sleep. On August 6th, we had our first kiss. On August the 10th, after seeing The Dark Knight with a gaggle of carousers, he asked me to be his girlfriend. Now I can associate Regina Spektor with someone better.
This year started out on the wrong foot, but like Kelsey Q kept repeating, "It's the year of love." After watching most of the people in my life fall madly and undeniably in love, I waited and learned about myself. In the end, it was the best decision I could have made.
Things I Won't Miss:
*Fighting with Doug Grove
*Waiting around for the phone to ring on Mondays
*Arguing with my dad
*Feeling incredibly lonely
Things I Already Miss:
*Spending time with Lindsay
*Seeing my mother on a regular basis
*One bill
*Feeling like I still had the world in front of me
*My Wii
Things I Regret:
*Brad.
Things I Don't Regret:
*The Actor's Nightmare
*Moving out
*Getting hurt
*Falling crazy in love with someone a year before he fell in love with me
The Year In Songs
January: "Is There a Ghost?" Band of Horses
February: "Red Cape Diver" Foxy Shazam
March: "Station Wagons" The Left Rights
April: "Samson" Regina Spektor
May: "Dead" My Chemical Romance
June: "The Archer's Bows Are Broken" Brand New
July: "Kill" Jimmy Eat World
August: "A Case of You" Joni Mitchell
September: "Bedroom Talk" The Starting Line
October: "US" Regina Spektor
November: "Dreams" The Cranberries
December: "Africa" Toto
So anyway...
Worst of 2008
1. I had a career-related identity crisis and realized too late just what I want to do with my life; I now have to return to school and get ANOTHER degree so I can teach.
2. I completely depressed my mother with making a rapid decision to leave the house.
3. Camel Menthol Wides.
4. I lost touch with a lot of people after I started working full time at the KinderCare.
5. I had to watch almost all of my friends go through their own respective rough patches; some were worse than others and some effected me directly.
6. I had the biggest, all-out scream fest with someone via the telephone when no one was home. He later wedged a half-burned baby doll's head in the tree on the front yard of Baltimore House.
7. I delved deeper than I ever have in my emotional space and found some things I never wanted to look at again.
8. I broke my New Year's resolution to stop hurting myself.
9. I lost a great deal of respect for myself from January to the end of April.
10. I got broken up with on my birthday.
11. I had a tumor in my colon that was removed by a dead-ringer for the lead singer of the All-American Rejects.
12. I worked at Block[Lack]Buster[Luster].
13. I took a job that doesn't pay me the money I need.
14. After I completely ignored the obvious red flags of a romantic situation, I got incredibly drunk one night and had my heart broken with a Regina Spektor soundtrack.
Best of 2008
1. I spent two months with some amazing children who have a great potential to change the world; I subsequently wrote a novel about them.
2. I moved into an apartment in Frederick to begin my life on my own.
3. Camel Menthol Lights!
4. I got hired at the Frederick KinderCare right down the street from my house. Nehigh and Amorah are my favorites.
5. I tried my hardest to be there for the people I love and poured myself into caring for them, even when I couldn't be around to listen.
6. I finally cut the ties of a destructive friendship.
7. I learned so much about my own heart, my own shortcomings, and my own goals in 2008 that the emotional hurt was completely worth it.
8. I haven't cut myself in seven months.
9. I came to terms with my own sexual desires and have found a trusting relationship in which I can express these desires.
10. Everything happens for a reason.
11. Colon tumors are hilarious. That's really the only good thing about it. Also, Pru held my hand while I shit green water.
12. I quit working at Block[Lack]Buster[Luster].
13. I finished a novel and that means I can start looking for publishers and then quit my job.
14. On August the 2nd, I spent the majority of the evening making saucy comments to 2007's "I fell in love and nothing will ever happen but that's okay," now revealed as Steven. August the 2nd into the 3rd, I texted with him for the better part of two hours. August the 3rd, I received a tarot reading from Kelsey Q that told me maybe it wasn't time to be patient anymore. August the 3rd into the 4th, Steven shared his romantic inclinations toward me via the internet. We talked on the phone from 3:15 AM until 7:30 AM, and I went to work on no sleep. On August 6th, we had our first kiss. On August the 10th, after seeing The Dark Knight with a gaggle of carousers, he asked me to be his girlfriend. Now I can associate Regina Spektor with someone better.
This year started out on the wrong foot, but like Kelsey Q kept repeating, "It's the year of love." After watching most of the people in my life fall madly and undeniably in love, I waited and learned about myself. In the end, it was the best decision I could have made.
Things I Won't Miss:
*Fighting with Doug Grove
*Waiting around for the phone to ring on Mondays
*Arguing with my dad
*Feeling incredibly lonely
Things I Already Miss:
*Spending time with Lindsay
*Seeing my mother on a regular basis
*One bill
*Feeling like I still had the world in front of me
*My Wii
Things I Regret:
*Brad.
Things I Don't Regret:
*The Actor's Nightmare
*Moving out
*Getting hurt
*Falling crazy in love with someone a year before he fell in love with me
The Year In Songs
January: "Is There a Ghost?" Band of Horses
February: "Red Cape Diver" Foxy Shazam
March: "Station Wagons" The Left Rights
April: "Samson" Regina Spektor
May: "Dead" My Chemical Romance
June: "The Archer's Bows Are Broken" Brand New
July: "Kill" Jimmy Eat World
August: "A Case of You" Joni Mitchell
September: "Bedroom Talk" The Starting Line
October: "US" Regina Spektor
November: "Dreams" The Cranberries
December: "Africa" Toto