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i worked yesterday and today. the job isn't that bad, but my summer job is wayy better. this job is easy. i'm working tomorrow too. i know you care.
i don't know what's going on. i'm really kinda freaked out. my stepmom and dad always kid around about my one friend liking me but i know he doesn't. we're just friends. but lately it seems different. it makes me think everything he says could be twisted so it is like he likes me. maybe i am just being paranoid. but the more i think about it, the more i realize people always say we would be cute together. and then i start to think about how i feel about this whole situation. i don't like him though. i love being friends. but i think i love him. not the kind fo love you say after going out with someone for two days because that is gayy as hell. not the kind of love for a friend or family member. it's deeper than that. it is so hard for me to explain. i don't get a rush around him like as if i had a girly crush on him. i just feel so comfortable. i love him. but i can't tell him because our friendship is too perfect. if he really wants me he should just say so. but maybe he is thinking the same thing. or maybe i'm totally making this all up in my head and he doesn't care. i love him. i've never said that and meant it like this before. i love him.
-hopelessly in a dazed and confused love