too too much...
crazy shit. that is what my life has been like lately. here's whats been going on...
today was my last day of work. im glad its over because i am pretty sure i would have had some kind of breakdown and went crazy in some kids face. but i will miss the distraction. and everybody and i got really close. i love those guys and girl... except mandie. she just bugged me. anyways... i guess that just makes things more real.
i had to say goodbye to two of my best friends in the whole wide world within the past week. i cried both times. on the way back from nicoles after i said goodbye to jeff i had to stop because i was so upset. its all changing. i am not ready to say goodbye. lauren and michelle start school on monday. matt leaves soon. i dont know what i am going to do with myself. i dont know.
so we had a family meeting last week... and the inevitable came out. divorce. i knew and wanted it to happen. but kimmy didnt. and when she cried. i cried. then my mom cried. seems like we have been doing more and more of that lately. just pray that we are strong enough to make it through. it seems like we are slowly wearing down.
i had orientation the other week. it was pretty awesome besides the fact that i am on the wait list for 2 of my classes. i should get them tho. i met some way cool people and overall i am way excited. i also got a call from my room mate... rachel harrington from nor cal. she doesnt seem like a weird hello-kitty loving asian book nerd so i am happy. she seems outgoing and nice so im pretty stoked. that is a relief.
thanks to everybody who made my birthday so special. i had a great few days. especially matty... i loved our dinner. that meant sooo much to me. thanks babe. your 19th and 20th birthdays dont mean shit... its just time til you get to 21. but it was still some awesome times.
i miss seeing everybody a lot. even my simi friends i havent had too much time with. its hard. but now things should free up for me. but of course now is when all of them get busy. and i REALLY miss all the cam kids. i havent seen them in forever and a half. we need to hang out when i get back, please. i miss you guys.
we are going on a much needed family (minus the dad) vacation tomorrow down to san diego. im gonna go visit vanessa and cass and maybe my make out buddy. (hehe). it should be relaxing and restful. call me and chat... i would love it.
until next time...
today was my last day of work. im glad its over because i am pretty sure i would have had some kind of breakdown and went crazy in some kids face. but i will miss the distraction. and everybody and i got really close. i love those guys and girl... except mandie. she just bugged me. anyways... i guess that just makes things more real.
i had to say goodbye to two of my best friends in the whole wide world within the past week. i cried both times. on the way back from nicoles after i said goodbye to jeff i had to stop because i was so upset. its all changing. i am not ready to say goodbye. lauren and michelle start school on monday. matt leaves soon. i dont know what i am going to do with myself. i dont know.
so we had a family meeting last week... and the inevitable came out. divorce. i knew and wanted it to happen. but kimmy didnt. and when she cried. i cried. then my mom cried. seems like we have been doing more and more of that lately. just pray that we are strong enough to make it through. it seems like we are slowly wearing down.
i had orientation the other week. it was pretty awesome besides the fact that i am on the wait list for 2 of my classes. i should get them tho. i met some way cool people and overall i am way excited. i also got a call from my room mate... rachel harrington from nor cal. she doesnt seem like a weird hello-kitty loving asian book nerd so i am happy. she seems outgoing and nice so im pretty stoked. that is a relief.
thanks to everybody who made my birthday so special. i had a great few days. especially matty... i loved our dinner. that meant sooo much to me. thanks babe. your 19th and 20th birthdays dont mean shit... its just time til you get to 21. but it was still some awesome times.
i miss seeing everybody a lot. even my simi friends i havent had too much time with. its hard. but now things should free up for me. but of course now is when all of them get busy. and i REALLY miss all the cam kids. i havent seen them in forever and a half. we need to hang out when i get back, please. i miss you guys.
we are going on a much needed family (minus the dad) vacation tomorrow down to san diego. im gonna go visit vanessa and cass and maybe my make out buddy. (hehe). it should be relaxing and restful. call me and chat... i would love it.
until next time...