things finally start to fall into place...
this, my friends,is the entrance to my new apartment. lincoln park, in chicago. i sign the lease on sunday. i love it. it is pretty perfect, except no tub. but i am taking it for the amazing deal in fucking lincoln park! now, i must find a job. but if all else fails, og here i come. i have finally begun putting in my notice at work, and i think management is really going to miss me. why the fuck wouldn't they?! hopefully the school financial situation falls into place for me now. here's hoping...
on the down side...
i have fianlly come to the realization that i am going to be completely alone in the big city. yeah, sure, everyone says they are going to visit, but still... for a healthy bulk of the time, i will be alone. no husband, no friends. i have so many good friends here that i can't bear the thought of no having them at least nearby. so in order to combat this lonliness, you are all invited to come stay with me for a weekend, what have you. i know that it is totally selfish and self-serving, but please come for a visit.
i am also afraid of failure. god, what am i going to do if i fuck up? what if this happens to be the biggest mistake of my life? i am putting it all on the line here, my job, my marriage, my finances, my life... this has to work out or i may have a fucking nervous breakdown. no, not may-- will.
okay, too drunk to be journal writing...