In A Weird Place...
Well, my setfocus training is over on the 23rd of this month. My brain is like oatmeal at the moment...
As much as I love knowledge, I feel like I have missed out on life a bit. Books are becoming less important, and I get less excited aboot how a particular algorithm might work.
I have been on a spiritual journely since the summer of 2000. While still extrememly affected by clinical depression, I also have found a sort of inner peace. I have always believed in GOD, but the last 4 years I have found myself drawn more and more to Christianity. And that draw is genuine... it's not me looking for something because something is missing. It's a real calling.
I have also realized that I just don't feel like I fit in modern society anymore. I don't have an appetite for materialism, career at the expense of humanity. I don't want to listen to music or see most films. Maybe I have been such a geek that I have had enough of books and learning; I just want to expeience life. I could care less aboot the latest technology and that stuff. I could care less aboot getting drunk or burying myself in cynical thinking.
What is important to me is people and friends. I like to work hard, but not at the expense of my selling my values short for $$$. While I still follow politics heavily, I just have no interest in debating it. I believe what I believe. If you want to know why I think something, I'll tell you why, but I'm not going to defend it.
I think I want to spend the rest of my time here on Earth helping people, and being the best friend I can be to people. Those are the things that put a smile on my face lately.
As much as I love knowledge, I feel like I have missed out on life a bit. Books are becoming less important, and I get less excited aboot how a particular algorithm might work.
I have been on a spiritual journely since the summer of 2000. While still extrememly affected by clinical depression, I also have found a sort of inner peace. I have always believed in GOD, but the last 4 years I have found myself drawn more and more to Christianity. And that draw is genuine... it's not me looking for something because something is missing. It's a real calling.
I have also realized that I just don't feel like I fit in modern society anymore. I don't have an appetite for materialism, career at the expense of humanity. I don't want to listen to music or see most films. Maybe I have been such a geek that I have had enough of books and learning; I just want to expeience life. I could care less aboot the latest technology and that stuff. I could care less aboot getting drunk or burying myself in cynical thinking.
What is important to me is people and friends. I like to work hard, but not at the expense of my selling my values short for $$$. While I still follow politics heavily, I just have no interest in debating it. I believe what I believe. If you want to know why I think something, I'll tell you why, but I'm not going to defend it.
I think I want to spend the rest of my time here on Earth helping people, and being the best friend I can be to people. Those are the things that put a smile on my face lately.