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well...
I don't want to talk about this. Party because I'm going to start bawling again, and partly because I don't want everyone to feel all sorry for me.
Parents=Pain.
Aren't they there to protect you..?
Psh, like life ever works like that.
I wish it could be all happy...like The Brady Bunch.
Ha.
I bet their family isn't so perfect. Marsha's a whore, Jan is a suicidal druggie, Greg(thats the oldest i'm pretty sure) is an R kelly style rapest, cindy is fallowing in her sisters footsteps by cutting hersef, the middle boy (forgot his name) he's the good one...but not really he's just trying to be strong...for his family, bobby wants to be a pimp druggie, the parents probably fight all the time off camera...The dad is cheating on the mom with alice the maid, the mom is dating her husbands boss...ha even the brady bunch has their problems.
I guess we might be moving. This is retarded.
Why am I crying so much.
Oh maybe because my mom wants to divorce my dad. My dad cheats on my mom. We're broke, infact we are thousands of dollars in debt. My mom and dad cuss eachother everyday, I get cussed everyday. My mom wants to blame everything on my dad, and he want to blame everything on her. I don't want to lose another dad..i know the one i got is unstable he'l kill himself i've seen him try i've seen my mom try...i've freaking taken the belt off of my dad's neck!!!!...i know the other dad was crap, but...he was my dad...i don't even know him!!! he doesn't even know me...he doesn't even try to know me...he doesn't even care about me...Ugh and now everything is about me...and I feel guilty for it...because everyone else in the world has pain and troubles...my parents/family isn't the only one that's screwed up...i hate being selfish... My brothers i love them so much and no one gets it. If we move...my life will be hell...worse than it is now. Abone's baby might die, but no one cares. She won't let Josh even be in the room while it's being born! what the freaking heck it's his freaking baby too! she is so stupid!!!!! But I fee for her...ugh why!!!! WHY DO I HAVE TO FEEL LIKE THIS WHY CAN'T I JUST NOT CARE!!!!!!!!!Why can't i just be like screw all of you!!! It's time for some self pity for...time to cry for me!!!! But I can't because I feel bad for being like that...God I hate this...I'm crying again you know why...cause someone asked if i was okay...i said yes. That's a lie. ugh I'm going I need to stop...My head is pounding...Don't worry about me...I'm not going to go kill myself..I'm too smart for that...I wish i was an idiot though...ugh all about me again....
I quit.
I don't want to talk about this. Party because I'm going to start bawling again, and partly because I don't want everyone to feel all sorry for me.
Parents=Pain.
Aren't they there to protect you..?
Psh, like life ever works like that.
I wish it could be all happy...like The Brady Bunch.
Ha.
I bet their family isn't so perfect. Marsha's a whore, Jan is a suicidal druggie, Greg(thats the oldest i'm pretty sure) is an R kelly style rapest, cindy is fallowing in her sisters footsteps by cutting hersef, the middle boy (forgot his name) he's the good one...but not really he's just trying to be strong...for his family, bobby wants to be a pimp druggie, the parents probably fight all the time off camera...The dad is cheating on the mom with alice the maid, the mom is dating her husbands boss...ha even the brady bunch has their problems.
I guess we might be moving. This is retarded.
Why am I crying so much.
Oh maybe because my mom wants to divorce my dad. My dad cheats on my mom. We're broke, infact we are thousands of dollars in debt. My mom and dad cuss eachother everyday, I get cussed everyday. My mom wants to blame everything on my dad, and he want to blame everything on her. I don't want to lose another dad..i know the one i got is unstable he'l kill himself i've seen him try i've seen my mom try...i've freaking taken the belt off of my dad's neck!!!!...i know the other dad was crap, but...he was my dad...i don't even know him!!! he doesn't even know me...he doesn't even try to know me...he doesn't even care about me...Ugh and now everything is about me...and I feel guilty for it...because everyone else in the world has pain and troubles...my parents/family isn't the only one that's screwed up...i hate being selfish... My brothers i love them so much and no one gets it. If we move...my life will be hell...worse than it is now. Abone's baby might die, but no one cares. She won't let Josh even be in the room while it's being born! what the freaking heck it's his freaking baby too! she is so stupid!!!!! But I fee for her...ugh why!!!! WHY DO I HAVE TO FEEL LIKE THIS WHY CAN'T I JUST NOT CARE!!!!!!!!!Why can't i just be like screw all of you!!! It's time for some self pity for...time to cry for me!!!! But I can't because I feel bad for being like that...God I hate this...I'm crying again you know why...cause someone asked if i was okay...i said yes. That's a lie. ugh I'm going I need to stop...My head is pounding...Don't worry about me...I'm not going to go kill myself..I'm too smart for that...I wish i was an idiot though...ugh all about me again....
I quit.