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it's the worst thing knowing you are approximately 1,200 miles away from someone when there are things that you need to say, things you need to get off your chest, but mostly, things you need to hear. i feel like someone has taken that essence of me that only i have, the one thing i fell back on when everything else seemed to be impossibly strange. and i don't know where i am. i have no one to talk to and i am 19 hours away from my boy. i watch my so-called friends and their boyfriends having sleepovers and holidays and 4 hour phone calls with their boyfriends even though they are about 10 minutes away. and i wonder when it's my turn. and most importantly, i wonder how i lost it.