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Despite everything,
I never once stopped believing in us. Never stopped the trust and love I have for you, something I hold for close to no one else in this world. Trust has always been my biggest vice. I lack faith in most everything, and everyone, and in time, I was able to have complete faith in you, something I have never been able to accomplish ever really. Does this mean anything to you?
When you tell me you see yourself as alone in this world, do you know how much that just makes me want to give up everything I had built in knowing you? In getting over a similar feeling of being alone? But that was months ago now. It all is gone, all lack of faith, all worry, all because of the love and faith I had in you and still have . that’s why without ever second guessing I just knew and felt similar understanding of you for me. that’s how maybe now you can understand my shock, my hurt, and my complete sadness in hearing you say the opposite since months have passed and I have recovered from that feeling… why are you still there?
I would drop everything and anything for you because I always knew and felt that you would do the same for me. I would wait for you forever, be with you forever, if you wanted, and I felt you would want the same of me too. I sincerely felt you did, and still do, which is why now I find myself more depressed than I have felt in some time.
I am confused, and wonder if I should let go when you say that you can’t believe in me too, when everything said and done said otherwise until now, a whole year later. We were unstoppable, and still are, I just don’t know why you would give up on me, when I know I will never give up on you.