Yeeeaaah I'm in the penalty box!
I finished The Island at the End of the World. I wanted to scream. (Wanted to, but there was family in the room.)
"The first-date kiss on the steps of her house (the lowered eyelashes afterwards), the second-date blowjob in the warm ocean-scented darkness of my garden (the rustling of silk, the saliva-filled mmmm, the bobbing obedient brunette head), and the third-date fuck in room 601 at the Tallis (stripping off those hundred-buck panties and watching that perfect expensive
PEACH of
I drink more wine, swallow. Fuck. Drink more wine it bones the spread stop groans the head stop
of an ass upturned, face buried in pillows, so trusting so vulnerable carnal the lips stop drip stop between her stop stop STOP.) More bitter than death the woman, whose heart is snares and nets, and her hands as bands, and her lips as metal traps.
But it is not good that the man should be alone. O no, woe to him that is alone. If two lie together, then they have heat, but how can one be warm alone? O
fuck I'm fucked.
I think of Alice.
The daughter betrayeth the father.
Her blossoming figure like her mother now full of seeds and so much like her mother but the HATE and the FEAR and the HATE in her eyes when she looks at me - HATE. And I thought once of brushing her, so gently I traceth my fingers along the curve of her hips while she slumbered, but the LUST of her familiar sleep-filled mmmmmm and I drew back in FEAR.
THEY MUST NEVER EVER-
"Pa? Are you alright?" Daisy inquires. The red room melts away to its original color. O Daisy Daisy Daisy thou hath brought me from the edge of the abyss."
If that narrative doesn't give you shivers I don't know what will.
On a side note, it irritates me that my chapter 7 of Haiera sits at home, 90% completed. But I did get random patches of sunburn from white water rafting today. That was cool, but now one half of one of my legs feels like it's going to fall off it's sunburnt so badly.
And on another note, my Saika!muse is fidgety and anxious and I'm thinking of doing a solo just to get him out (because with two rps and a collab, I'm still not appeased) blargh! It definitely doesn't help listening to his playlist.