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[tinylittleheart]

I disgust myself. Literally. That thing is happening again where I can't look at myself without crying or getting sick to my stomach. Everything is making me naseuous. Decisions, too, but I don't want to think about those. Started tonight, let's hope it's gone tomorrow. I miss my mom so much and I don't want to leave in two days. But I do, because that means school and work everyday again so I don't have to really think about anything. I don't know if that's a good or bad way of handling stuff, but it's worked before.

I don't hate myself or anything. I just don't know.

Crap. I hate these kind of entries.

Here's to turning 20! Yay!