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so last night i went to the demolition derby like i promised my friend Dan, and I got my buddy Tom to go with me. He picked me up on his Harley, and let me tell you, it was amazing. I know why people who have them are so obsessed with them. You feel SO free. I can't even describe the feeling. it was just awesome cruising around on it with him.
the derby was alright, dan got disqualified for hitting someones driver side door...so that was lame, he didn't mean to...a few interesting things happened i guess..someone got flipped (was fine) and there was a small fire, but that was it. My ears are cursing at me for not wearing ear plugs though. But it was alright.
Then on the way home Tom and I talked about how we're both getting ditched by Steph and how pissed we are..it was a good vent..and he took me on a half hour ride just around. I loved it. it was a perfect night for it, and i loved every second of being on that bike.
I miss dj...I'm so bored around here without him. I'm bored with life when I'm not with him, more specifically.
I'm starting to feel an ache in my gut for the soccer decision..i know, im bringing it up again... but
just reading people's comments on facebook about "see ya saturday!" and stuff like that...makes me feel like a lazy ass for not playing...makes me feel like i should get out there and kick people's asses cuz i can... makes me feel like a dissapointment...to myself and to my dad...i just feel useless and like a piece of shit. Why did i decide i shouldn't play?
slap back to reality, im not playing because mike (the coach) sucks and is rediculous and his bullshit pissed me off and I don't deserve it, thats why im not playing. I'm not playing because i have really tough classes this semester and school is the reason im' at school...not socce.r
im not playing because i dont love it as much anymore...i was bored with it this summer...i was not connected to the team or any of that last season with augsburg...i couldnt have cared if we won or lost...thats why im not playing.
ugh.
i hate this.
i need to drink it away or something. i hate feeling like this.
:(
i have nothing left in green bay. i wont be coming back.
i leave in a week.
call if you want.
the derby was alright, dan got disqualified for hitting someones driver side door...so that was lame, he didn't mean to...a few interesting things happened i guess..someone got flipped (was fine) and there was a small fire, but that was it. My ears are cursing at me for not wearing ear plugs though. But it was alright.
Then on the way home Tom and I talked about how we're both getting ditched by Steph and how pissed we are..it was a good vent..and he took me on a half hour ride just around. I loved it. it was a perfect night for it, and i loved every second of being on that bike.
I miss dj...I'm so bored around here without him. I'm bored with life when I'm not with him, more specifically.
I'm starting to feel an ache in my gut for the soccer decision..i know, im bringing it up again... but
just reading people's comments on facebook about "see ya saturday!" and stuff like that...makes me feel like a lazy ass for not playing...makes me feel like i should get out there and kick people's asses cuz i can... makes me feel like a dissapointment...to myself and to my dad...i just feel useless and like a piece of shit. Why did i decide i shouldn't play?
slap back to reality, im not playing because mike (the coach) sucks and is rediculous and his bullshit pissed me off and I don't deserve it, thats why im not playing. I'm not playing because i have really tough classes this semester and school is the reason im' at school...not socce.r
im not playing because i dont love it as much anymore...i was bored with it this summer...i was not connected to the team or any of that last season with augsburg...i couldnt have cared if we won or lost...thats why im not playing.
ugh.
i hate this.
i need to drink it away or something. i hate feeling like this.
:(
i have nothing left in green bay. i wont be coming back.
i leave in a week.
call if you want.