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i haven't apdate for a good time .... hummm i've been busy .. mom came bringing me wonderful presents from germany ... i've found Wael a job at dubai ( arab emrates ) and we are working now at his passport i'm getting to nervous too deprest and i don't know .. i'm pushing him to go ... knowing inside it's not the easyest thing to do ... i mean ... my birthday our aniyersary the valentines the new year his birthday ... .... i'll be all alone without him for a year ... i'm trying to not tell him about how i feel until i started to feel that he's thinking that i won't care .. well .. what should i do .. he have no job here and every thing is turning so bad beside he's going to have a wonderful salary there and he'll skinp the military services... he should go .. beside when he'll be there when we'll get married i'll work there for 10 time my salary here in syria ... but yet i'm so affraid .. we gave this guy the money ( the guy who's offering the job opportunities) and now he's working for our agency but still we're not so sure about him ... i don't know i'm so messed up about the whole case ... i don't know ...
yesterday i hade a meeting ( huge one with all biusinessmen of aleppo ) and i did so well i impresed every one .. and as it was just an oppening meeting which will be followed with a lots of jobs opportunities with Turkia so i think every thing will go just fine ... we will have the big meeting at 29 -30 this month ... hoping to have seriouse offers from and for our agency ..
my community is growing up ... i have leghic ( thank you for joyning ) and a laday how travel all the time and another who works at australia and there's a post from a travel agent in scotland and after reading a page from here jornal i know she's a real expert at the right place .. so i hope she'll joine too .
well gotta go .. mom said that we have to go to the restaurant don'tyou know it's an old habit every friday we go eate at a restaurant ... ( classy one ) since i was 6 until today we didn't miss a day .. so .. gotta go .. i miss you all and i love you so much .. i kept reading your post the last few days it just that i'm not feeling too good to write any thing .. i'm ... i don't know .. feeling so bad . so confused and i don't know any thing any more .. want him to go so bad affraid from any thing that would mess this opportunity .. and at the same time so afraid of staying without him ... especialy when mom and jad ( my brother ) started making fun of us right away .. saying things like " well when you'll find the next one to lve and send out of syria .