Too late to go back to sleep.
So, I’ve been re-watching Season 1, and it’s still my favourite season. By far. No fucking question. Tighter writing. More interesting storylines. Big heart-stopping emotion. All the things that make a great TV show. The pretty boys and hot sex goes without saying. And of course, it was the Season where boy met much-younger-boy, and the most fabulous gay romance in the celluloid world was conceived. I still love all the other seasons of my big gay show, but none so much as the place where it all started. The thing is, it’s all about the WOW. Ya know?? The 'WOW' factor. And Season 1 has it in dirty spades. Just all these beautiful moments that make me go ‘WOW’ at the TV screen.
Like OK, just a few things that come to mind (beware, strong B/J bias, cuz while I love all the other characters to bits, I never really get the 'WOW' with them - the 'awww' and the 'ha!', but never the 'WOW'):
The *first*. The deflowering of Justin. Especially for the ‘coming or going’ speech, cuz like, WOW. I have a huge hankering for closure on that speech. Justin saying something like “So I came and I stayed, after all”. And Brian saying nothing (or perhaps just, "Yes, you did"), but smiling a little and looking at him with that same look he had on the stairs in 314, and swooping him up and making mad passionate love with him on the couch, up against the pole, over the kitchen table…
The ‘Let’s Hear It For The Boy’ dance, AKA where Justin snared the Big Bad Wolf. I want an animated icon of Brian snaking his tongue up Justin's chest. And the ‘lift’. WOWEE.
110 sex. WOWSERS TO THE MAX. And it’s not really about the sex for me (really, I swear, it's not), it’s about the *looks* on their faces. They’re just having so much fun - grinning at each other, and at the realisation that they really *enjoy* doing this together. I die.
Forever Young kiss. I grin so hard in that scene. And Justin says earlier in the ep: “Making out on the dancefloor, have you ever seen anything so juvenile??” *snicker*
It’s all about the lighting, and that damn song which just makes me tingle every time. And that fucking kiss. But it’s also about Brian showing some real compassion *publicly* towards Justin. And telling him that he cares what happens to him, that he remembers details of their first night together, that he fucking *respects* him. And yes,that fucking kiss, that makes me think of The Princess Bride - surely it would make the list of ‘purest, most passionate’ kisses? :”> That scene just totally *gets* to me. Wow.
Justin pole-dancing in 120 - OMG LIKE WOW HE LOOKS FUCKING SEXY FOR SOMEONE WHO UP UNTIL SEASON 3 I WAS NEVER SURE WAS *ACTUALLY* GOOD-LOOKING. And boy can he dance. And now we know he can sing too! And then there’s Emmett’s “YOU GO BABY”, and Mikey’s “WOO” - 'WOW' moment big-time. Hell, I just wanna yell and slam things down on the table really hard. And then the scene in the back-room when Brian looks all sad and little and slightly dumb-struck and Justin is just viciously pumping away at that little retarded boy's butt which OMG btw has gotta hurt. Lots of 'WOW's in there.
And the Prom of course. Monumental 'WOW'. The most important moment in that whole scene (IMHO), is right at the beginning of the dance, when Brian removes the scarf from around his neck, and places it gently and precisely around Justin’s. The same scarf that mere hours/days before was symbolic of something entirely different. I hear Ewan MacGregor in my head, “I choose life”. I choose to live, and I choose to start opening my heart and letting myself be happy. I choose this beautiful, brilliant boy, who sees something in me and just won’t let go. OK so I got a little carried away, but you kinda know what I mean, right?? I’m the biggest schmoop that ever schmooped, which should come as no surprise to anyone that really knows me. >:P
So for me, Season 1 is a great big menagerie of 'WOW's. It’s just so big and fantastic and colourful and loud and energetic and sexy and romantic and heartbreaking and so many other things. The rest of the seasons have had a few 'WOW’s here and there, but never as many, or as *big*. The few that come to mind: 202 miracle sex; 219 ‘I will live on your spit for an entire episode’; the end of 314; the “Tell Me About Ibiza” scene in 408. Yeah, some 'WOW's there for sure. But damnit I want a 'WOW' in every episode!! Is that asking too much?? Really?? I know, I know, it’s all about the thrill and excitement of something new, which can never truly be replicated. Thank God (read:Showtime) I can relive it anytime I want - my bootiful DVD’s, how I love.
And so I just had to jot all that down. To remind myself. Cuz lately I’ve been kinda “eh” with all things fandom. New job, big mother-fucking be-all and end-all exam looming on the horizon (WHICH COST ME $3000 FOR FUCK’S SAKE), a life that kinda feels like it’s stuck on constant loop - all of which means I really should be spending less time drooling over Gale’s arms, or chatting on YM, or reading about the latest ass-crack-for-brains kerfuffle... and more time doing the important stuff, before I lose sight of what that is. If it weren’t for the plethora of good fic and pretty vids hitting the LJ street in the last few weeks, I think my apathy would be at an all-time high. For now, I’m staying, but it just doesn’t hold that same excitement. Less 'WOW'. Whadda ya know, I’m suffering from my own subsequent-season-itis.
A few things before I go.
Flo, there are no words big or pretty enough to thank you for giving me Season 4 - I would be a mess of frazzled nerves and twisted undies if it weren’t for your wonderful fortnightly packages. Thank you so *so* much. :-*
Go forth and download lierdumoa’s SupermanBrian!vid. It’s clever, and hysterically funny, and somehow creeps up on you with a huge fucking ANGST to the head. And I know how much she like HATES PIMPAGE OMG, but some things must be done. *snark*
M, we have a date with a checkerboard. You and me, sucker. I WILL KICK YOUR ASS.
Aida, you have ruined chicken for me entirely. I shall never be able to eat it again. You are very lucky I like you a little, and don’t hold grudges. :X:X:X
Like OK, just a few things that come to mind (beware, strong B/J bias, cuz while I love all the other characters to bits, I never really get the 'WOW' with them - the 'awww' and the 'ha!', but never the 'WOW'):
The *first*. The deflowering of Justin. Especially for the ‘coming or going’ speech, cuz like, WOW. I have a huge hankering for closure on that speech. Justin saying something like “So I came and I stayed, after all”. And Brian saying nothing (or perhaps just, "Yes, you did"), but smiling a little and looking at him with that same look he had on the stairs in 314, and swooping him up and making mad passionate love with him on the couch, up against the pole, over the kitchen table…
The ‘Let’s Hear It For The Boy’ dance, AKA where Justin snared the Big Bad Wolf. I want an animated icon of Brian snaking his tongue up Justin's chest. And the ‘lift’. WOWEE.
110 sex. WOWSERS TO THE MAX. And it’s not really about the sex for me (really, I swear, it's not), it’s about the *looks* on their faces. They’re just having so much fun - grinning at each other, and at the realisation that they really *enjoy* doing this together. I die.
Forever Young kiss. I grin so hard in that scene. And Justin says earlier in the ep: “Making out on the dancefloor, have you ever seen anything so juvenile??” *snicker*
It’s all about the lighting, and that damn song which just makes me tingle every time. And that fucking kiss. But it’s also about Brian showing some real compassion *publicly* towards Justin. And telling him that he cares what happens to him, that he remembers details of their first night together, that he fucking *respects* him. And yes,that fucking kiss, that makes me think of The Princess Bride - surely it would make the list of ‘purest, most passionate’ kisses? :”> That scene just totally *gets* to me. Wow.
Justin pole-dancing in 120 - OMG LIKE WOW HE LOOKS FUCKING SEXY FOR SOMEONE WHO UP UNTIL SEASON 3 I WAS NEVER SURE WAS *ACTUALLY* GOOD-LOOKING. And boy can he dance. And now we know he can sing too! And then there’s Emmett’s “YOU GO BABY”, and Mikey’s “WOO” - 'WOW' moment big-time. Hell, I just wanna yell and slam things down on the table really hard. And then the scene in the back-room when Brian looks all sad and little and slightly dumb-struck and Justin is just viciously pumping away at that little retarded boy's butt which OMG btw has gotta hurt. Lots of 'WOW's in there.
And the Prom of course. Monumental 'WOW'. The most important moment in that whole scene (IMHO), is right at the beginning of the dance, when Brian removes the scarf from around his neck, and places it gently and precisely around Justin’s. The same scarf that mere hours/days before was symbolic of something entirely different. I hear Ewan MacGregor in my head, “I choose life”. I choose to live, and I choose to start opening my heart and letting myself be happy. I choose this beautiful, brilliant boy, who sees something in me and just won’t let go. OK so I got a little carried away, but you kinda know what I mean, right?? I’m the biggest schmoop that ever schmooped, which should come as no surprise to anyone that really knows me. >:P
So for me, Season 1 is a great big menagerie of 'WOW's. It’s just so big and fantastic and colourful and loud and energetic and sexy and romantic and heartbreaking and so many other things. The rest of the seasons have had a few 'WOW’s here and there, but never as many, or as *big*. The few that come to mind: 202 miracle sex; 219 ‘I will live on your spit for an entire episode’; the end of 314; the “Tell Me About Ibiza” scene in 408. Yeah, some 'WOW's there for sure. But damnit I want a 'WOW' in every episode!! Is that asking too much?? Really?? I know, I know, it’s all about the thrill and excitement of something new, which can never truly be replicated. Thank God (read:Showtime) I can relive it anytime I want - my bootiful DVD’s, how I love.
And so I just had to jot all that down. To remind myself. Cuz lately I’ve been kinda “eh” with all things fandom. New job, big mother-fucking be-all and end-all exam looming on the horizon (WHICH COST ME $3000 FOR FUCK’S SAKE), a life that kinda feels like it’s stuck on constant loop - all of which means I really should be spending less time drooling over Gale’s arms, or chatting on YM, or reading about the latest ass-crack-for-brains kerfuffle... and more time doing the important stuff, before I lose sight of what that is. If it weren’t for the plethora of good fic and pretty vids hitting the LJ street in the last few weeks, I think my apathy would be at an all-time high. For now, I’m staying, but it just doesn’t hold that same excitement. Less 'WOW'. Whadda ya know, I’m suffering from my own subsequent-season-itis.
A few things before I go.
Flo, there are no words big or pretty enough to thank you for giving me Season 4 - I would be a mess of frazzled nerves and twisted undies if it weren’t for your wonderful fortnightly packages. Thank you so *so* much. :-*
Go forth and download lierdumoa’s SupermanBrian!vid. It’s clever, and hysterically funny, and somehow creeps up on you with a huge fucking ANGST to the head. And I know how much she like HATES PIMPAGE OMG, but some things must be done. *snark*
M, we have a date with a checkerboard. You and me, sucker. I WILL KICK YOUR ASS.
Aida, you have ruined chicken for me entirely. I shall never be able to eat it again. You are very lucky I like you a little, and don’t hold grudges. :X:X:X