okay i might've been listening to white x-mas so this is angsty. XDtinyanglDecember 26 2008, 03:23:39 UTC
arf. I saw forever young and thought of the rod stewart song. lolol why do i know old songs. XD UM. I HAD TO RESIST FROM MAKING THIS AN AU. IASDKJASLKD My obsession lately. fail. ...Okay, it kinda is. Future!fic, more of. XD
This probably does not fulfill your prompt by far. XD Sorry.
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We're driving 'round chasing the stars
Koyama closes his eyes and sighs.
"What are you thinking about?" Ryo asks from the driver's seat. Koyama looks over, noticing how the lights hit his face as they drive past each street lamp--dark to light to dark again. His eyes though are always shrouded in shadow.
"Nothing," Koyama answers truthfully.
"Then why'd you sigh?" Ryo never looks away from the road, never turns to Koyama, and even though it would be dangerous, Koyama feels a little disheartened. He turns away, staring at the road in front of him.
"Because I felt like it."
A silence falls inside the car until Ryo comes to a complete stop at a red light. Koyama can feel Ryo's eyes on him. "Do you regret it?"
Koyama turns to meet Ryo's strong and sturdy gaze. "No. It was a good decision. The right one." He shuts his eyes again and sighs.
Ryo's gaze never wavers until the car jerks back into drive and Koyama can feel the questioning look stop for at least a couple of minutes. Silence surrounds them again, and before Koyama can actually think of something, the car comes to a stop in front of his family's restaurant.
As he unbuckles, Ryo's hand lands on his, stopping him. Koyama looks up to a face that's not pitying, but something about it feels like it is--and that just makes Koyama want to break down when it's the last thing he wants to do right now. At this second. He swallows down his emotions.
"Are you going to be okay?"
Koyama wants to laugh. It seems like such a simple question--but it really trails all the way back to the fact that NewS isn't going to be together anymore, he's not going to work at Johnny's anymore. And for that, Koyama resents Ryo for that second. That moment where Ryo should've known better than to ask that.
"No," Koyama answers, meeting Ryo's serious gaze. "But I'll get over it. Right now though, Ryo-chan. RIght now, I don't know what tomorrow's going to bring." He shakes Ryo's hands off of him and removes his seat belt, sliding out of the car. "Thanks for the ride." Koyama pauses as he leans back into the car. "And good luck at Johnny's. I'll always be rooting for you."
He shuts the door behind him before Ryo can say anything back. Entering his home, and what is probably going to be his home for the next couple more years, Koyama goes up to his room. When he gets to his window, he sees Ryo's car still parked outside, Ryo leaning against it with his attention focused on his cell phone. Koyama stares, watching as Ryo punches something into his phone and then looks up to catch Koyama standing at his window. There's an unmistakable smile on Ryo's face that makes Koyama half-wonder what he's thinking before he's distracted by his phone going off--Hoshi wo Mezashite fills the room.
Koyama grabs his phone and realizes that Ryo was writing a message to him. Swallowing, Koyama starts to read and he doesn't think he can breathe for the few minutes he spends just reading and then re-reading. Four times.
"Furikaeranai sa mou nidou to wa (We won't look back and never again) Hoshi wo mezashite (Let's aim for the stars) Utai nagara boku wa arukidasu (I will sing as we move forward)"
By the time Koyama remembers to go back to the window, Ryo's already gone. He closes his eyes and exhales.
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Tell me you'll remember
Koyama refuses to lose contact with anyone--even if they're not working together. He texts all six of them at least once a week, calls Shige every night because some things just never change, and someone has to make sure he gets to bed at night before an early trial the next morning.
"Do you miss it?" Shige asks out of the blue during one of their phone calls.
This probably does not fulfill your prompt by far. XD Sorry.
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We're driving 'round chasing the stars
Koyama closes his eyes and sighs.
"What are you thinking about?" Ryo asks from the driver's seat. Koyama looks over, noticing how the lights hit his face as they drive past each street lamp--dark to light to dark again. His eyes though are always shrouded in shadow.
"Nothing," Koyama answers truthfully.
"Then why'd you sigh?" Ryo never looks away from the road, never turns to Koyama, and even though it would be dangerous, Koyama feels a little disheartened. He turns away, staring at the road in front of him.
"Because I felt like it."
A silence falls inside the car until Ryo comes to a complete stop at a red light. Koyama can feel Ryo's eyes on him. "Do you regret it?"
Koyama turns to meet Ryo's strong and sturdy gaze. "No. It was a good decision. The right one." He shuts his eyes again and sighs.
Ryo's gaze never wavers until the car jerks back into drive and Koyama can feel the questioning look stop for at least a couple of minutes. Silence surrounds them again, and before Koyama can actually think of something, the car comes to a stop in front of his family's restaurant.
As he unbuckles, Ryo's hand lands on his, stopping him. Koyama looks up to a face that's not pitying, but something about it feels like it is--and that just makes Koyama want to break down when it's the last thing he wants to do right now. At this second. He swallows down his emotions.
"Are you going to be okay?"
Koyama wants to laugh. It seems like such a simple question--but it really trails all the way back to the fact that NewS isn't going to be together anymore, he's not going to work at Johnny's anymore. And for that, Koyama resents Ryo for that second. That moment where Ryo should've known better than to ask that.
"No," Koyama answers, meeting Ryo's serious gaze. "But I'll get over it. Right now though, Ryo-chan. RIght now, I don't know what tomorrow's going to bring." He shakes Ryo's hands off of him and removes his seat belt, sliding out of the car. "Thanks for the ride." Koyama pauses as he leans back into the car. "And good luck at Johnny's. I'll always be rooting for you."
He shuts the door behind him before Ryo can say anything back. Entering his home, and what is probably going to be his home for the next couple more years, Koyama goes up to his room. When he gets to his window, he sees Ryo's car still parked outside, Ryo leaning against it with his attention focused on his cell phone. Koyama stares, watching as Ryo punches something into his phone and then looks up to catch Koyama standing at his window. There's an unmistakable smile on Ryo's face that makes Koyama half-wonder what he's thinking before he's distracted by his phone going off--Hoshi wo Mezashite fills the room.
Koyama grabs his phone and realizes that Ryo was writing a message to him. Swallowing, Koyama starts to read and he doesn't think he can breathe for the few minutes he spends just reading and then re-reading. Four times.
"Furikaeranai sa mou nidou to wa (We won't look back and never again)
Hoshi wo mezashite (Let's aim for the stars)
Utai nagara boku wa arukidasu (I will sing as we move forward)"
By the time Koyama remembers to go back to the window, Ryo's already gone. He closes his eyes and exhales.
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Tell me you'll remember
Koyama refuses to lose contact with anyone--even if they're not working together. He texts all six of them at least once a week, calls Shige every night because some things just never change, and someone has to make sure he gets to bed at night before an early trial the next morning.
"Do you miss it?" Shige asks out of the blue during one of their phone calls.
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