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[tinyabby]

i'm home. i know this break is going to be a struggle. so far, ok. the days are fine but the nights are lonely and melancholy. i want so much for this family i've come home to to really be a part of my life, but that's not the way it is. i suppose this is my last try at doing things their way. i'll be optimistic. i just have to be cheerful. i'm not going to try to open myself up to them any more.. i only get judged. i say this with no bitterness, its the truth. all i can do is just try to get along with them. they're my family. i just have to.
i hope you all know how special you are to me. i love you and i wish you the best.