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I hate being a corporate slut.
The man is bringing me down.
...the man being FYE, of course.
I should have just finished my tattoo apprenticeship. I could be inflicting pain upon others for the sake of art instead of pushing people to buy crap they don't want.
I need to find a new job.
I miss the feeling of intimacy. I'm not talking about sex. I'm talking about just being close to someone. I miss kissing. I think that kissing is one of the most romantic things in the world. I miss being with someone who cares about me for me. I really like just making out. Often when I'm with someone and we're being intimate I'll find myself crying afterwards, whether it was sex or just kissing. I feel strange sharing a part of myself with someone who doesn't really care about anything but the physical aspect of what we have. Am I making sense? I think that's why I have such a problem with guys. I'm very unwilling to get to know someone unless I'm sure it won't be a waste of my time. So many guys are just after a good fuck and they're not going to get that from me unless I trust them. I miss making out with someone knowing that they're with me because they want to be and they truly care for me as a person. I feel more comfortable that way and I enjoy everything more. Sex isn't a big deal to me because I don't really care for it. Sure, I'll get caught up in the moment and think I want it but I know that I'll end up regretting it. I guess it's that I get bored. I don't know. I don't even know if this makes sense. It doesn't really matter because it's for my own purposes; I can straighten out my thoughts more easily if I type them out. It's up to you whether you read it or not and frankly, I don't care.
What I really, really want right now is a good cuddle. That's the best :) Will you cuddle with me??
The man is bringing me down.
...the man being FYE, of course.
I should have just finished my tattoo apprenticeship. I could be inflicting pain upon others for the sake of art instead of pushing people to buy crap they don't want.
I need to find a new job.
I miss the feeling of intimacy. I'm not talking about sex. I'm talking about just being close to someone. I miss kissing. I think that kissing is one of the most romantic things in the world. I miss being with someone who cares about me for me. I really like just making out. Often when I'm with someone and we're being intimate I'll find myself crying afterwards, whether it was sex or just kissing. I feel strange sharing a part of myself with someone who doesn't really care about anything but the physical aspect of what we have. Am I making sense? I think that's why I have such a problem with guys. I'm very unwilling to get to know someone unless I'm sure it won't be a waste of my time. So many guys are just after a good fuck and they're not going to get that from me unless I trust them. I miss making out with someone knowing that they're with me because they want to be and they truly care for me as a person. I feel more comfortable that way and I enjoy everything more. Sex isn't a big deal to me because I don't really care for it. Sure, I'll get caught up in the moment and think I want it but I know that I'll end up regretting it. I guess it's that I get bored. I don't know. I don't even know if this makes sense. It doesn't really matter because it's for my own purposes; I can straighten out my thoughts more easily if I type them out. It's up to you whether you read it or not and frankly, I don't care.
What I really, really want right now is a good cuddle. That's the best :) Will you cuddle with me??