I'm Sorry Lord!
I missed writing here….it’s been a very long time since I updated my journal…a lot of things has happened, some worth sharing but others I’d rather forget!…In exactly a month’s time I would be celebrating my debut, I don’t know what will happen, my parents don’t have the time to be with me and take care of things that are still needed…I have my program but I hope they all will come…The invites are almost over and so are the souvenirs…I want to get things over with…not just the things for my debut but also the problems I’m dealing with my life right now, I’m really, really sad…I don’t know if it shows but I’ve been hiding these feelings a long time now, its like in every aspect of my life, something’s going wrong…I’m very disappointed with my grade of 3.375. For sure others will be very happy with that grade but knowing that you’re .25 close to getting a 3.4 and making it to the first honors I know you wouldn’t be happy ‘bout it…I’m not.
I’ve always dreamed of becoming the Valedictorian even when I was just a kid…I wasn’t able to fulfill my dream…now, being the Sumacumlaude seems even harder to reach. I study hard, do my best but I always fall short. Did I lack prayers…I guess so, I’m Sorry Lord! But sometimes I just get so upset with my life I forget to think about the good things I have that even others don’t have. I know how blessed I am but a part of me still want to have more…I guess I am the Green-eyed monster! It’s just so disappointing that you see others whom you think is not deserving, get to have all the things you want and you don’t…You can’t help but question God...