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so i realize now it has been a long time sence an update
well in a nut shell school is great. workis fine, im out of money, and lots of drama.
Most of you who know me(and talk to me often) know most of it but basicly, I'm dumb and thought i could fix things by myself without talking to people and i realize you can't do that. If there is something wrong the worst thing to do is to keep it all inside and everything is better when you talk to people.
There is a concert tonight and I wish I was there. I love the music, I love thoes guys! (and im extreemly jelous and know Ben probly won't sleep alone(although i really hope he does))
There is this guy matt that we know and apparntly he is in love with me and my mother is begging me to give him a chance. which i don't want to do because im not attracted to him at all. I went throught this wirth him before I went to my dads. He told my mom that i am the most beautiful person he has ever meet. and that he it was love at first sight blah blha blah.
I've been sad lately. Crying more, I have my reason but none of them are good and it makes me cry harder knowing im weak. I'm so tired of being myself, i don't even know who this girl is anymore. The only place I've been able to be myself is at work. Thats why I love it so much there.
I had the best night ever last night. I mean it felt so good, so right, like it was when i got back from my dads. I was so happy even this morning was wonderful. When you talk to people and let them know what is going on it opens so many doors. I'm happy.
I wish i would of learned this before i fucked up other relationships but its too late for thoes. the past is past, the furtur is to far away and all we have it today!
well in a nut shell school is great. workis fine, im out of money, and lots of drama.
Most of you who know me(and talk to me often) know most of it but basicly, I'm dumb and thought i could fix things by myself without talking to people and i realize you can't do that. If there is something wrong the worst thing to do is to keep it all inside and everything is better when you talk to people.
There is a concert tonight and I wish I was there. I love the music, I love thoes guys! (and im extreemly jelous and know Ben probly won't sleep alone(although i really hope he does))
There is this guy matt that we know and apparntly he is in love with me and my mother is begging me to give him a chance. which i don't want to do because im not attracted to him at all. I went throught this wirth him before I went to my dads. He told my mom that i am the most beautiful person he has ever meet. and that he it was love at first sight blah blha blah.
I've been sad lately. Crying more, I have my reason but none of them are good and it makes me cry harder knowing im weak. I'm so tired of being myself, i don't even know who this girl is anymore. The only place I've been able to be myself is at work. Thats why I love it so much there.
I had the best night ever last night. I mean it felt so good, so right, like it was when i got back from my dads. I was so happy even this morning was wonderful. When you talk to people and let them know what is going on it opens so many doors. I'm happy.
I wish i would of learned this before i fucked up other relationships but its too late for thoes. the past is past, the furtur is to far away and all we have it today!