wreck of the day...
Starting Friday I found out some hurtful news. I may be moving... possibly not even possibly, unless through some welcoming events occure I will be.
My head hasn't been quiet, but finally i'm in th comfort of my bed where I can feel safe for a while.
I can't really explain this pain in my body,I've totally lost myself in it.
I know not a lot of things would be changing for the most part in other's eyes, but I've lived here in my home for my entire life. I'm embarking on something so unknown and foreighn to me with no warning.. never thought I'd ever hear those words. ever.
not to sound sooo encedibly fake to anyone, but this entry is for me and this is how a truly feel about my situation. I don't know what to do with myself.
I'm dreading going to work tomorrow and having to fake a smile all day. I could hardly stop crying all friday night, and saturday I took like i was stoned out of my mind, my eyes were so red and puffy. yeah.
This weekend apart from my current tradgedy was very much needed. I went up to River Side for the first time to a really awesome bbq parrty thing. food was yum, but the drinks and company was better. everyine was so interesting and funny. oh and I had my first white russian saturday night. It was kind of a long drive home but a worth while road trip fer sure! thank you Daniel for the invite.
have sweet dreams, i hope too.
My head hasn't been quiet, but finally i'm in th comfort of my bed where I can feel safe for a while.
I can't really explain this pain in my body,I've totally lost myself in it.
I know not a lot of things would be changing for the most part in other's eyes, but I've lived here in my home for my entire life. I'm embarking on something so unknown and foreighn to me with no warning.. never thought I'd ever hear those words. ever.
not to sound sooo encedibly fake to anyone, but this entry is for me and this is how a truly feel about my situation. I don't know what to do with myself.
I'm dreading going to work tomorrow and having to fake a smile all day. I could hardly stop crying all friday night, and saturday I took like i was stoned out of my mind, my eyes were so red and puffy. yeah.
This weekend apart from my current tradgedy was very much needed. I went up to River Side for the first time to a really awesome bbq parrty thing. food was yum, but the drinks and company was better. everyine was so interesting and funny. oh and I had my first white russian saturday night. It was kind of a long drive home but a worth while road trip fer sure! thank you Daniel for the invite.
have sweet dreams, i hope too.