mehh
i hate being me :( i like... dont understand myself. like ok im going to assume that no one reads this, therefore its safe to like... talk about crap. sorta. like... i do stupid when i'm happy and like... it makes me feel horrible. then i feel horible, so i do it more. but like, tonight i hadn't been stupid in like.. a day lol and i was feeling like.. bad/stupid/awful/horrible for ever being stupid. so what do i do? i go stupid >:O like... worse than ever before. and strangely enough, it made me feel better this time. :-\ maybe it's the kind of thing that only works when you're feeling bad to start out with. like... feelin good + stupid -----> awful, but awful + stupid ------> better. ugh. stupid stupid caroline.