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my normal bed time is quickly becoming 2am.
so an update. I wish things were good but they aren't. well I shouldn't say that...things can always get worse. So I guess considering that, things are so so.
number one on my list, I didn't get the State job. Its was a crushing blow, I'm not going to lie. Just one more thing to reinforce my piss poor outlook on life. Somehow I managed not to cry too much about it, at least I still have my Office Max job.
I'm in a bit of a limbo right now. I don't know where I'm heading or what I want anymore. seriously I just don't know. its a horrid way of being.
I hope I can scrap through my writing class but I don't think I'll get into MSU, it just doesn't seem possible. I don't want to kid myself into believing something like that.
So what now? like I said above. I just don't know.
right now I'll take the happy moments of my life in between the shitty ones and that's all I can manage. I don't want to plan big anymore. and when more the shit hits the fan, at least I'll be ready for it.
so an update. I wish things were good but they aren't. well I shouldn't say that...things can always get worse. So I guess considering that, things are so so.
number one on my list, I didn't get the State job. Its was a crushing blow, I'm not going to lie. Just one more thing to reinforce my piss poor outlook on life. Somehow I managed not to cry too much about it, at least I still have my Office Max job.
I'm in a bit of a limbo right now. I don't know where I'm heading or what I want anymore. seriously I just don't know. its a horrid way of being.
I hope I can scrap through my writing class but I don't think I'll get into MSU, it just doesn't seem possible. I don't want to kid myself into believing something like that.
So what now? like I said above. I just don't know.
right now I'll take the happy moments of my life in between the shitty ones and that's all I can manage. I don't want to plan big anymore. and when more the shit hits the fan, at least I'll be ready for it.