Illness, stress and changes
Mum's back in hospital at the moment and is meant to stay there until the radiation has finished at least. She is having a very hard time with the pain management. She is in quite good spirits though, despite all that which is very nice.
I have been ill a lot this semester so far. I apparently have caught an eternal flu which is never quite bad enough to justify me lying on the sofa all day and never quite well enough for my to feel energetic and ready to do things. The lack of energy particularly is really doing my head in.
University has been challenging - mainly because apparently everyone has gotten rather bad marks so far. An awful lot of people dropped out over the holidays when they got their marks. I don't know mine yet as I got a one month extension to take care of my mum and haven't gotten anything back yet. I am not expecting a lot though. So far all my course marks have been much worse than I expected, although knowing that I am not the only one is making me feel a little better. No one seems to be sure what we are all doing wrong though, which is very frustrating. We keep asking the professors and keep not getting much in the way of clear answers.
Finally on a personal note: Garry seems to have finally understood the gravity of the situation though. For a very long time I have been going on at him that we are just making small talk day in and day out and that that is a problem. For about a month I felt I had made it clear that I think this is actually endangering our relationship as it is fairly substantially. Well, this morning I think the message has finally arrived. He wants to think about it and come back to me. However, I am not sure if this is one we can fix. Not sure what has to change - if we just need to realise it is not working and move our separate ways or if there is any other solution. I hope now that he gets the problem we can at least talk about it though.
I have been ill a lot this semester so far. I apparently have caught an eternal flu which is never quite bad enough to justify me lying on the sofa all day and never quite well enough for my to feel energetic and ready to do things. The lack of energy particularly is really doing my head in.
University has been challenging - mainly because apparently everyone has gotten rather bad marks so far. An awful lot of people dropped out over the holidays when they got their marks. I don't know mine yet as I got a one month extension to take care of my mum and haven't gotten anything back yet. I am not expecting a lot though. So far all my course marks have been much worse than I expected, although knowing that I am not the only one is making me feel a little better. No one seems to be sure what we are all doing wrong though, which is very frustrating. We keep asking the professors and keep not getting much in the way of clear answers.
Finally on a personal note: Garry seems to have finally understood the gravity of the situation though. For a very long time I have been going on at him that we are just making small talk day in and day out and that that is a problem. For about a month I felt I had made it clear that I think this is actually endangering our relationship as it is fairly substantially. Well, this morning I think the message has finally arrived. He wants to think about it and come back to me. However, I am not sure if this is one we can fix. Not sure what has to change - if we just need to realise it is not working and move our separate ways or if there is any other solution. I hope now that he gets the problem we can at least talk about it though.