this makes me sad.

[tintizzy]

So im just sitting here thinking about a wonderful man that left my life and my family's life almost 2 years ago. I know he knows we loved him so much..he was the glue to our family. What i wouldnt do to find a man that was half the man he was. March 16 will be the anniversary of his death and i cant believe that its been that long already. time has flown. I know he would have been proud of me for graduating school and getting a job i really enjoy. I have regrets for not spending as much time as i could with him before he died. I was "too broke" but i see that as no excuse. I really should have made more of an effort. I cant change the past of what i should have done..I know he knows how much i love him..I went to his grave once since he died...and that was the first time i had gone since grandma died..and it was with mom to put flowers down for his birthday...i know i couldnt had stayed there much longer than we did..we drove up and i was already in tears. I miss him so much. all i want to do is to talk to him again, hear his voice, saying hey my baby, his laugh, his old war stories, his jokes. Sit down to dinner with him.
ugh i want a papa hug they were the best in the world.
This man.....






no one else like him.