wow.
my best friend adam got married yesterday afternoon. i have to say it was beautiful but overcast and rainy..and it was an outside wedding. they wanted a quick wedding with a huge reception. in my opinion is the best way to do it. they had a bar with whatever kind of liquor you could want. lol. i have to say i had a fucking blast. and i was happy allnight long. i forget how it feels to be around friends who you care alot about and the feeling is returned. i drank a WHOLE BUNCH lol lets list the drinks:
started off with two margaritas, one shot of Goldschlager, then thanks to adam i now have two favorite shots
half Goldschlager and half jager, and half baily's irish cream and half jager (dirty oatmeal).
lets just say that both are very yummyfied and i had about 3-4 of each. not to mention the sweet rum drink the bartender made me. so all n all..i was very drunk and happy about it. although i am feeling it today.
on all seriousness..last night was the best night in forever. no drama...nothing to worry about..there to see my best friend get married and give him hell about it. i honestly forgot how much fun it was to be around adam..lol...he is a bundle of laughs and all that. april is a good girl too..glad they were meant for each other..although she got to him before i could lol...lucky bitch. if i could find a guy anything like adam..i would be the luckiest girl on earth. anyways back to the night of dreams lol..so i danced my ass off (finally the dj played music we could dance too). LOTS of pictures were taken lol. im glad i brought my camera. all i have to say about that is BAD ADAM AND APRIL HAHAHAH! lol. then i whispered a mission in their ear..heh they gladly accepted the challenge heh. we shall see the outcome. hopefully after last night we wont lose contact like we always do lol. partly to blame of both of us. he and got ALOT of talking done..i guess alcohol helps..plus we are both happy drunks so it made for easy conversation lol.
i miss that alot..just being able to kick back with friends and chilling out or having a blast. either way i miss the connection with other human beings.
and after last night i have truely decided that i need to be single for a while. i dont need to jump into anything again like i did. it messes everything up. and i think this has something to do with the fact that im not at peace with myself. im tired of being angry and bitter all the time towards relationships. if i cant be happy with myself then i cant make someone else happy either. i have lost alot of myself the last two - three years and its becuz i just stopped caring about anything and just saying fuck it. i really need to become one with myself again. i hate not feeling like im in my own skin. i guess thats why i've been thinking about and looking into buddhism. what i've read is something that seems would do me good if i were to practice a religion. i really dont believe in christanity however thefuck you spell it. its filled with nothing but hypocrites, and a book that was not written by the man they worship. where as with buddhism you are becoming one again with positive thinking and meditation. we shall see what i make out of all this once i can start visiting a center and reading books.
like woah! look at that entry..lol could i be anymore random.
started off with two margaritas, one shot of Goldschlager, then thanks to adam i now have two favorite shots
half Goldschlager and half jager, and half baily's irish cream and half jager (dirty oatmeal).
lets just say that both are very yummyfied and i had about 3-4 of each. not to mention the sweet rum drink the bartender made me. so all n all..i was very drunk and happy about it. although i am feeling it today.
on all seriousness..last night was the best night in forever. no drama...nothing to worry about..there to see my best friend get married and give him hell about it. i honestly forgot how much fun it was to be around adam..lol...he is a bundle of laughs and all that. april is a good girl too..glad they were meant for each other..although she got to him before i could lol...lucky bitch. if i could find a guy anything like adam..i would be the luckiest girl on earth. anyways back to the night of dreams lol..so i danced my ass off (finally the dj played music we could dance too). LOTS of pictures were taken lol. im glad i brought my camera. all i have to say about that is BAD ADAM AND APRIL HAHAHAH! lol. then i whispered a mission in their ear..heh they gladly accepted the challenge heh. we shall see the outcome. hopefully after last night we wont lose contact like we always do lol. partly to blame of both of us. he and got ALOT of talking done..i guess alcohol helps..plus we are both happy drunks so it made for easy conversation lol.
i miss that alot..just being able to kick back with friends and chilling out or having a blast. either way i miss the connection with other human beings.
and after last night i have truely decided that i need to be single for a while. i dont need to jump into anything again like i did. it messes everything up. and i think this has something to do with the fact that im not at peace with myself. im tired of being angry and bitter all the time towards relationships. if i cant be happy with myself then i cant make someone else happy either. i have lost alot of myself the last two - three years and its becuz i just stopped caring about anything and just saying fuck it. i really need to become one with myself again. i hate not feeling like im in my own skin. i guess thats why i've been thinking about and looking into buddhism. what i've read is something that seems would do me good if i were to practice a religion. i really dont believe in christanity however thefuck you spell it. its filled with nothing but hypocrites, and a book that was not written by the man they worship. where as with buddhism you are becoming one again with positive thinking and meditation. we shall see what i make out of all this once i can start visiting a center and reading books.
like woah! look at that entry..lol could i be anymore random.