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I have been ignoring the internet for quite awhile. Actually I have been ignoring everything. It has been kind of depressing lately. I have had nothing to do since I didn't want to make plans until I knew about my mobility. Not being able to get out of the house much led to a lot of Law & Order marathons and feeling like a bowl of Jello. My one-year anniversary of being SIB free is coming up. This has created a lot of unexpected emotions. I have had stronger urges than usual because I feel afraid of reaching one year. Sometimes I think that if I cut before I reach one year that the pressure will be off of me. These thoughts don't last long and I know I won't follow through, still it is disturbing to have them.
On monday I went to the cities for an appointment with my surgeon. He said my leg is healing much faster than expected and he has no idea why. On the x-ray you can barely see where they did the bone graft. There are so many screws in my ankle you could build a house. He said I can start putting weight on it now. This is 6 weeks earlier than his shortest estimate! He had said before the surgery that it was possible I would start weight bearing in August or September. He looked so stumped looking at the x-ray that I almost laughed. It is nice to surprise the doctors with good things.
Tomorrow I start volunteering at the Kid's Cafe. Finally something to do with my time. I can't wait.
On monday I went to the cities for an appointment with my surgeon. He said my leg is healing much faster than expected and he has no idea why. On the x-ray you can barely see where they did the bone graft. There are so many screws in my ankle you could build a house. He said I can start putting weight on it now. This is 6 weeks earlier than his shortest estimate! He had said before the surgery that it was possible I would start weight bearing in August or September. He looked so stumped looking at the x-ray that I almost laughed. It is nice to surprise the doctors with good things.
Tomorrow I start volunteering at the Kid's Cafe. Finally something to do with my time. I can't wait.