hospital f-ups
My surgery was supposed to be today. When I called the hospital yesterday to get my appointment time they said I wasn't on the schedule. I don't know where in the chain of paperwork it got screwed up but my surgery had to be rescheduled for friday. In the big picture it's not a big deal, I'm just very frustrated. It took a lot for me to get mentally prepared for this so an extra 3 days to fret about it does not make me happy.
I'm scared. I am now more likely to get an infection. The vancomycin I took for my last infection is what caused my kidney failure. If I have repeated infections the doc might suggest amputation again. As much as I tell myself that it is silly to worry about this now, I can't get the thoughts out of my head. I am trying to control my fears and not think about the "maybe" and the "what if." I am trying not to think about the surgery at all, no point in worrying about something I can't control anyway. Well, thats what I want to believe. I am going to keep myself as busy as possible over the next two days so I have less time to think.
I'm scared. I am now more likely to get an infection. The vancomycin I took for my last infection is what caused my kidney failure. If I have repeated infections the doc might suggest amputation again. As much as I tell myself that it is silly to worry about this now, I can't get the thoughts out of my head. I am trying to control my fears and not think about the "maybe" and the "what if." I am trying not to think about the surgery at all, no point in worrying about something I can't control anyway. Well, thats what I want to believe. I am going to keep myself as busy as possible over the next two days so I have less time to think.