nicked from critical_wound
01. List some things you want to say to 20 different people.
02. Don't say who they are.
03. Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything...
1. I love you more than you probably understand, and that's probably for the best
2. I wish I'd never loved you. I wish I was still wondering what it was like to love and be loved in return, because now I don't know how to settle for anything else.
3. I don't like you and I don't know why everyone else does. Is it because my ego's bruised or because I just don't know you? I dunno.
4. I'm not sure if we're friends are not, but I like talking to you...I like you...sometimes I do stuff and it makes me think about you. But I'm still sorta bracing myself for the kickball I half feel like you're gonna aim at my face.
5. Silly boy. You're the best non-brother a girl could have.
6. Though I haven't told you, I think of you as a little brother. I'm so incredibly proud of you. You've grown up so much in the face of adversity when, I think, you thought you were gonna cave like a paper house. There's still more out there for you, and I pray that you find it.
7. Ya'll don't like me. Admit it. It's okay. I don't know why I keep coming back around you guys, but there it is.
8. How come you never wanted me?
9. Every now and then I have to remind myself that I no longer like you like that. Darnit.
10. I don't tell you this enough, but I thank God for you in my life. You came to me at such a difficult time, when I felt so alone and so deficient and so stupid. And you told me I was okay, and that I could do it...and then you asked me if I did do it. And every time we "talk" you ask about me and you care about me, even as you're going through so much crap. When I made NaNoWriMo for the first time ever, you were the first person to just be really, truly, ecstatically happy for me just because you knew it was something I wanted to do. I think you might have been happier than I was. I love you.
11. I like to think of you as one of my moms. And I like to imagine that sometimes you think of me as your daughter. *blush*
12. You too. Plus I miss you. How are the kids?
13. You three, and I know you think of me as one of your kids :D
14. Though I love you guys, and I'm pretty sure you love me, I'm also pretty sure you don't really get me at all.
15. Everytime we get back together I realize just how strong a friendship we have. We totally have that "pick up the conversation right where we left off" thing going for us, despite it sometimes being months - if not years - between us talking. You're crazy (both of you) but you're real and you're cool. How do I get away with being out of contact with ya'll so much?
16. Though the above is true, you really need to take a look at your life and rethink it. Your roomie is right...you open yourself to too much crap.
17. OMG you are hot! So wrong for me, but so ge-orgeous!
17. Sometimes, some days, it'd be nice if it were about me for once.
18. You break my heart.
19. WRITE!
20. Why do You love me? You who know me best, Who sees all my faults, know just how awful and disgusting and vile and so completely and unutterably damaged I am....what do You see in there that's loveable? Why do You care? Why do You love me? Whatever You do, please don't stop.