Jun 22, 2007 15:50
well last night was really the last night!he got pysical because he was mad at me. he grabbed Allison's arm and was trying to pull her out of my arms and even when i said that he was hurting her he didn't let go and it scared me and i let go because i didn't want to see my baby get hurt. So she went into the bedroom... i need to start at the beginning and write everything down.
He asked me yeserday {6-21-07} morning to go online and check our bank account. I was sleping and told him i'd do it later. when i got up i got ready and left to go and clean the church {like i do Every Tuesday and thursday mornings} and when I got home around 1:30pm after cleaning the church and picking up Cooper Powel, the little boy that i babysit. I went online to check and make sure that his payroll check had been deposited. it had and i also saw that he had went to Publi and got cash back. When he got home about 4 o'clock pm, I politly asked why he had not taken the lunch that i had made him he replied that he did not see it and then i asked why he had gotten cash back at publix, there aren't many places he can't use his debit check card and he Screamed "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU CHECKING UP ON ME??" I said "No, but I don't want you to talk to me like this in front of the children" mine Allison Mills and Cooper. he then walked out of the room and into our bedroom. I went in to tell him that our friend JC had called and that he wanted to come over so that i could change the bandage on his back and he ignored me so i called JC to tell him that it was ok for him to come over and he said to tell Paul that he was on his way. I then went in to tell Paul that JC was on his way and he got angry because he really didnn't want company and i asked why he hadn't said something when i told him JC wanted to come over and that it was a little late because i had already told JC it was ok. i went to rotate laundry and then went back into the bedroom to tell him that it was the Pastor at my church's birthday and they were having something at the church for him that night and that I had just put dinner in so why didn't he go and take a shoer, we could eat dinner and then go to church together. he asked who the hell is we and i said Me and Alli. and he said But you have company coming over and i said No JC is not staying he's just coming over so that i can change his bandage and he replied what the fuck are you nurse betty? and i said Yeah his mom and sister are both squeamish and for the last 8 years of our friendship i've been nurse betty, if he hadn't noticed.... Allison had come into the room and was trying to talk to Him and he was ignoring him so i told her that we needed to leave Daddy alone, that he was in a bad mood and we needed to let him rest. I took her out of the room and closed the door and she started to cry and i said Babygirl it's ok, don't cry, JCs is coming over Mommy has to fix his ouchy again like we did yesterday, remember? you can talk to JCs while Mommy changes his bandage its ok don't cry.. and she stopped so i put her down and she went into the livingroom to play with Cooper. Paul came out of the bedroom about 2 minutes later and he still looked angry and he said {very rough and stern} "Allison, Come here." and i went and picked her up and said Paul you're in a bad mood and i think you need to calm down before you play with her. and he said 'No I don't" and came walking towards me and i said "Yes you should" and he said "You don't have any fucking control over that" and then grabbed her arm very tightly and started to pull her towards me and i said "Paul you need to calm down you are hurting her" because she was starting to cry and he grabbed her around the waist and kept pulling her and i didn't want her to be scared or get hurt so i let go and i looked at him and said "When we leave tonight we aren't coming back" and he took her into the bedroom were she stayed about 5 minutes and then came back out into the livingroom with Cooper and I. I then packed some bags and put them into the car with things for a couple of days and when Cooper's mother came to pick him up at 6:20pm Allison and I got into the car and went to my Pastor's birthday party
we then went to my friend Vanessa's house because i was afraid that if i went back home that we would fight and I didn't know what would happen next. it seems like every time we fight he gets more and more angry and now he's beinf forcful with Allison, I don't think s yelling is one unhealthy thing but pysically doing things to my daughter is not going to happen again.I'm not going back to him. I'm not going to have my daughter get hurt because he's angry with me and trying to prove some masculine point....
Christina