End Scene For the Gawky Lovers
I woke up reaching out for you
And when I realized I had been dreaming
I denied that could come from me.
Not with how well I'd been dealing.
It's been one day since you'd come over
And said we can't be lovers
I dug the heat, tried understanding
And passed with flying colors.
We looked at each other and smiled
The adoration without high connection
The completion of the gawky lovers' romance
Who now faced in different directions.
I guess we fade in and out
And that's how I've understood it.
Not to say that you didn't have feeling
Cause you made that clear and I knew it.
But sometimes the love does not balance
And it's not enough to keep put.
She feels the need to be exploring
And reassures me that I'd been so good.
The love for each others' company
Still dwells among us two
And I have no doubt that our remnants
Can produce a simpler me and you.
This past day has been bittersweet
Which is not what I'd expected
I didn't feel disregarded by you
I didn't feel tired or infected
Still, last night I swore we lay closely
And I ran my hand through your hair
As always you silly-smiled at me.
Fuck, I swore I was there.
We lay tangled in fabrics and colors
And the walls jumped with artwork and scarves
And the fuzz on the TV infront of us
All these pictures my memory has carved
And how you never looked better
As my hands trinkled down to your hip
But just as my hand settled
My sleep unsettled with it.
Time froze for a second
Half-woke, half where I wanted to be
Then I choked up as I realized
That the whole time I'd been here asleep.
It was so real and I was so happy
And just as easily it was gone.
My mind played a clever hoax on me.
It revealed what I'd tried to put off.
Not to say this feeling rules me
And I admit it's one I do adorn.
But rather it lays quite subtly
Because I'll take you in any form.
The longing subsides, replaced
By the comfort of your care for me
Proving there were no bad intentions
Handling me very gently.
The care that exists is what matters
It's the reason I'm still in one piece
Cause your regard for me, baby
Is what makes you that much easier to release.
Given time I'll adapt to the changes
After all, it's only been a day.
Love will adjust itself naturally
If we keep smiling each others' way.
10/27/2006
And when I realized I had been dreaming
I denied that could come from me.
Not with how well I'd been dealing.
It's been one day since you'd come over
And said we can't be lovers
I dug the heat, tried understanding
And passed with flying colors.
We looked at each other and smiled
The adoration without high connection
The completion of the gawky lovers' romance
Who now faced in different directions.
I guess we fade in and out
And that's how I've understood it.
Not to say that you didn't have feeling
Cause you made that clear and I knew it.
But sometimes the love does not balance
And it's not enough to keep put.
She feels the need to be exploring
And reassures me that I'd been so good.
The love for each others' company
Still dwells among us two
And I have no doubt that our remnants
Can produce a simpler me and you.
This past day has been bittersweet
Which is not what I'd expected
I didn't feel disregarded by you
I didn't feel tired or infected
Still, last night I swore we lay closely
And I ran my hand through your hair
As always you silly-smiled at me.
Fuck, I swore I was there.
We lay tangled in fabrics and colors
And the walls jumped with artwork and scarves
And the fuzz on the TV infront of us
All these pictures my memory has carved
And how you never looked better
As my hands trinkled down to your hip
But just as my hand settled
My sleep unsettled with it.
Time froze for a second
Half-woke, half where I wanted to be
Then I choked up as I realized
That the whole time I'd been here asleep.
It was so real and I was so happy
And just as easily it was gone.
My mind played a clever hoax on me.
It revealed what I'd tried to put off.
Not to say this feeling rules me
And I admit it's one I do adorn.
But rather it lays quite subtly
Because I'll take you in any form.
The longing subsides, replaced
By the comfort of your care for me
Proving there were no bad intentions
Handling me very gently.
The care that exists is what matters
It's the reason I'm still in one piece
Cause your regard for me, baby
Is what makes you that much easier to release.
Given time I'll adapt to the changes
After all, it's only been a day.
Love will adjust itself naturally
If we keep smiling each others' way.
10/27/2006