alone again...naturally
So today was the end. Bobby and I aren't together anymore. Not sure how I feel about that just yet. He told me that he didn't think he was ever going to be in love with me, and that he didn't want to share his life with anyone. The only problem I have with that is I can't figure out why you would want to be with someone if you don't want to have any emotional connection...for some reason, I thought that was the point of a relationship. It doesn't make any sense, and everyone I've talked to has told me that it sounds as though there's someone else...and he seems to be pushing me away so that he doesn't have to be the bad guy. Meh, it's not like it would bother me if there were someone else, I could care less about that. I just feel somewhat manipulated. he still wants to hang out. I'm not going to do it. There wouldn't be any reason to. For some reason I don't see him being too hard to get over. I'll still love him, but I can deal with that. It's certainly not as though I'll be lonely, I could probably have a new one by the weekend, I don't want one. Over the summer, when I was flying solo, it was some of the best times of my life. And lord knows this summer I plan on having fun and making memories that I'll never forget. All of this has really made me miss stewy. In fact, I think I may call him tomorrow. he'll make me laugh and forget everything, and forgetting this is definitely a good thing. Brian is coming over now. I've got to get dressed and such. it'll be interesting cuz I'm shaking.