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The next few days are going to be very hectic, but I'm going to welcome it with open arms.
I won't be home, and that's what I like. I don't feel comfortable here anymore.
Roughly 16 more days, and I won't have to deal with people calling me a cunt via a public social networking site. Well, they still might for whatever reason, but at least I'll be in a more relaxed environment, and I won't have to call my mother crying and shaking because I need to vent to an unbiased audience.
This is taking a toll on my emotions. I can't rest when he's home because I have this overwhelming anger inside thats completely involuntary. Thank god I'll be out of here before my studies and my work get too intense. I don't need that negativity in my life at this moment. My main focus needs to be surgeries. Waited way too long for this.
But, my own place. My own. It'll be nice.
Tomorrow I'm going to the North Florida Outpatient Surgical Pavilion. I've never been there. I'm nervous.
I'm going home for the weekend after I move to pick up some things at home. I'll get to see Eddie, and it'll make me happy. At least I have him around. We've known each other for over a year now, and we met face to face a year ago on the 27th. It's the longest I've ever been involved with someone, even if it has been on and off during that time. It feels nice.
Hopefully soon after I see him, he makes his trip up here. I can't decide if I want to spend a lot of time showing him around, or locked up in my new place laying around naked for 80% of the time.
I'm not going to get any sleep tonight. I just know it.
I won't be home, and that's what I like. I don't feel comfortable here anymore.
Roughly 16 more days, and I won't have to deal with people calling me a cunt via a public social networking site. Well, they still might for whatever reason, but at least I'll be in a more relaxed environment, and I won't have to call my mother crying and shaking because I need to vent to an unbiased audience.
This is taking a toll on my emotions. I can't rest when he's home because I have this overwhelming anger inside thats completely involuntary. Thank god I'll be out of here before my studies and my work get too intense. I don't need that negativity in my life at this moment. My main focus needs to be surgeries. Waited way too long for this.
But, my own place. My own. It'll be nice.
Tomorrow I'm going to the North Florida Outpatient Surgical Pavilion. I've never been there. I'm nervous.
I'm going home for the weekend after I move to pick up some things at home. I'll get to see Eddie, and it'll make me happy. At least I have him around. We've known each other for over a year now, and we met face to face a year ago on the 27th. It's the longest I've ever been involved with someone, even if it has been on and off during that time. It feels nice.
Hopefully soon after I see him, he makes his trip up here. I can't decide if I want to spend a lot of time showing him around, or locked up in my new place laying around naked for 80% of the time.
I'm not going to get any sleep tonight. I just know it.