12 inches
here i am in buffalo. it's been great.
but i'm still not sleeping well. in fact, i'm almost worse off than i was before i got here.
moderation is key. i don't think i've been around anyone except for dorian that's moderate.
i'm lonely. i'm tired. i'm quiet. i think a lot.
i've been having the weirdest dreams too. i woke to one the night before last where i was watching something being built in some building, but i knew it was my grandmothers house, even though it didn't look it. but i went to open the back door, and in the dream there was a screen that normally wouldn't, that was banging. i went out to close it and when i unlocked it so it would shut, i got the most painful bite sensation in my right upper arm. i had been bit and it was so painful. someone else was their, i don't remember who, but we tried to fix it but i woke up. at like 7:30. today, 7:45.
we are having family brunch, 12 people in the family, haven't seen them in years, i'm completely afraid of what is going to come out my aunt's mouth, especially about the ring i've been wearing.
i don't think i've ever done a better job at watching my mouth.
i don't have anything to say anyways.
i just watch my grandparents with anticipation... they talk about the most extraordinary things, they joke about death and i shudder, they still hold hands, they wink at each other, they make the funniest little jokes, and i coo.
i took a walk through 12 inches of snow yesterday to the tracks and took pictures, that felt good. i got the camera to take these wonderful b&w pics. i'm going to take some more of the old play ground down the street today, weather permitting.
i think i want to come here for my birthday this year.
i think i'll be fine. i hope.
dorian says, i have some of the greatest qualities and that all people focus on the negative, but it's kind of only when you start talking about the positive that they seem smaller, that helped.
he also said in a year, or when i'm thirty, i am going to be one great person, i am on it now... we'll see what happens...
but i'm still not sleeping well. in fact, i'm almost worse off than i was before i got here.
moderation is key. i don't think i've been around anyone except for dorian that's moderate.
i'm lonely. i'm tired. i'm quiet. i think a lot.
i've been having the weirdest dreams too. i woke to one the night before last where i was watching something being built in some building, but i knew it was my grandmothers house, even though it didn't look it. but i went to open the back door, and in the dream there was a screen that normally wouldn't, that was banging. i went out to close it and when i unlocked it so it would shut, i got the most painful bite sensation in my right upper arm. i had been bit and it was so painful. someone else was their, i don't remember who, but we tried to fix it but i woke up. at like 7:30. today, 7:45.
we are having family brunch, 12 people in the family, haven't seen them in years, i'm completely afraid of what is going to come out my aunt's mouth, especially about the ring i've been wearing.
i don't think i've ever done a better job at watching my mouth.
i don't have anything to say anyways.
i just watch my grandparents with anticipation... they talk about the most extraordinary things, they joke about death and i shudder, they still hold hands, they wink at each other, they make the funniest little jokes, and i coo.
i took a walk through 12 inches of snow yesterday to the tracks and took pictures, that felt good. i got the camera to take these wonderful b&w pics. i'm going to take some more of the old play ground down the street today, weather permitting.
i think i want to come here for my birthday this year.
i think i'll be fine. i hope.
dorian says, i have some of the greatest qualities and that all people focus on the negative, but it's kind of only when you start talking about the positive that they seem smaller, that helped.
he also said in a year, or when i'm thirty, i am going to be one great person, i am on it now... we'll see what happens...